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What else do I need to say?

2012-02-14T22:42:00.003+08:00

IT'S FINALLY 2 MORE WEEKS LEFT FOR SCHOOL.
Don't know should I say that I am happy or sad.
Cause..

1. As Thk, I feel that I feel lose contact with my friends.
Going out is also a problem as well, I rarely get invited or some sort.
Have been like this for few years and I had no idea why this would happen.
Maybe I looked fierce or unfriendly or even stuck up or er, idk, any reason.
So yeah, even if I had the chance to ask, I have no idea where to go.

2. I have to either start working or continue studying.
Well it all depends on my results and it would determine if I could pass the requirements.
After that it would be another interview where I will dread the part.
So I guess my real journey is going to start soon.
These past few years of school were just some 'have-to-dos' as you grow.

And now, I'm doing some report reading. I have got no mood to do it.
Finding meanings or definitions. Getting boring when some terms are so straight-forward.
But still, I have to do this in order to help my GPA to increase.

So, besides school, I had nothing else to share. Oh and, Happy Valentine's Day~
And yeah I didn't celebrate that, how can I ? -wink wink-

I guess I have to stop here now, nothing to share for this post :(
Just bored so I've decided to touch my blog for awhile before I disappear again.

Mata ♥.

A week after Chinese New Year

2012-01-29T03:45:00.010+08:00

Cool much ?

-

How stupid it is to come to a conclusion where you realize someone you know is involved.
Just because we ain't close, all the possible ways to revenge would pop up.
But there's no other scenarios for me to think that would fit in,
Even though there's space for me to think that it isn't this way.

But still, sucks to find out that someone you knew indirectly hacked you.

Anyway, how's Chinese New Year everyone?
Boring, interesting, won a lot of money, shouldn't have gambled.
A week has passed and school has already start for 3 days.
Projects piling up and I'm still procrastinating.
For that 3 days of school. I slept like total of 30hours.
Been long since I am able to sleep for 11hours for a normal school day.
But well, because the term's ending, school is also ending early.
Talking about term ending, my interview is coming up and I'm totally not prepared.
Fail that module and I would really go and suicide on the spot.

Still deciding on whether to continue studying or start on my working life.
Worried for my studies and scared that I will waste time, since I am Thk.
Of course, also scared that I will regret like most people do cause we've got no degree.
And there's not much time left for me to think.
People are encouraging me or rather telling me that I should continue studying.
But the point is, am I really up for it ?

That is, I don't know.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. !

2012-01-17T23:03:00.004+08:00

Seto Koji ! ♥ Love Heaven =)
KYAAAA , LOL . Hello people, long time no see.
You see, I'm bored right now.
And I have got so much things I haven't complete yet and it's needed tomorrow morning.
Say around 9am and I haven't finished all of them .
I know I have no much time left but still I'm updating my blog.
HAHAHAHAHA . Well..

I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR .

I don't know why but, errr, I also looked forward to last year's.
But I look even more forward to this year HAHA .
Because both post-days got movie to watch and big big dinner to enjoy.
And both pre-days have got a lot of stuffs to do.
Maybe I have gained my interest in this, but not in my studies :(
Don't know is stress or just that I'm procrastinating too much so I gave myself stress.
Last term already, not even a semester is left for me before I graduate.
Better make good use of it and regret it after.
"Saying it seems easy, but when it comes to doing, say byebye."

Guess I better go do my tutorials, projects and research already.
U-Kiss's Tick Tack and D-Date's Love Heaven's FRENZY.
-replaybuttonforever-

I may be mad, but this shows that I've changed.
Mata ashite. ♥(Who knows when)

♥

2011-12-10T15:19:00.003+08:00

Tonight I shall be here
(Tick tack tick tack)
Tonight i shall be here
(Tick tack tick tack)

Kimi dake aishiteru
Sore kimochi wa kawaranai oh

Bokura ni wa kasanette kita
suteki na omoide mo arukeredo
(I must be up right now)
Kono yoni asurosu gosanai kara
ookina oh so tsukuderanai

Tonight I shall be singing for you through the night
(tonight) I shall be turning on the broken light
(tonight) yozora ichimaru kuyoni
Tonight ( tonight) Tonight ooh ~
Woah ( tick tock tick tock )
Woah ( tick tock tick tock )
Nani wo okute
Tell me all, say yoni
Kagayoshi kanare
Tonight ( tonight) Tonight ooh ~

Mi no konai iki ni kock chodakara
I say goodbye hajishimau heart dake do
We have no choice kono mama nara wa
We are falling down, and you say what (say what what what)

Bokura ni wa koerarenai
Zankoku na kame ga atte
(We must be separated, oh)
Hatana so wa kimi no tame ni tsuku(so) tsukute

Tonight I shall be singing for you through the night
(tonight) I shall be turning on the broken light
(tonight) yozora ichimaru kuyoni
Tonight ( tonight) Tonight ooh ~
Woah ( tick tock tick tock )
Woah ( tick tock tick tock )
Nani wo okute
Tell me all, say yoni
Kagayoshi kanare
Tonight ( tonight) Tonight

Ima kimi no hitori
Michimaru kau no hidotoki
Dont cry, dont cry c’mon uso de kizutsuku you baby
Boku ga ichi no hika yeah soshite kiss soshita
Oh~

(Tonight) I’ll never never never give
(Tonight) I’ll never never never give
(Tonight) I’ll never never never give
Tonight ( tonight) Tonight

Yeah
Imi wa kedokonai
Yasashisa wa yet i dont know why
Shy ga suite ureta
Boku roku daijobu
Mada ii chikanai
Nani mo shiranai
Kimi wa damasenai

Tonight I shall be singing for you through the night
(tonight) I shall be turning on the broken light
(tonight) yozora ichimaru kuyoni
Woah ( tick tock tick tock )
Woah ( tick tock tick tock )
Nani wo okute
Tell me all, say yoni
Kagayoshi kanare
Tonight ( tonight) Tonight

4hours of sleep.

2011-10-17T22:33:00.003+08:00

Yep, as how the title says.
Today, which is 17th and yesterday which is 16th. (LOL)
I woke up around 12pm on 16th & lied down on my bed on 17th around 2am.
Rolled around and went crazy to drain off my energy so I could doze off.
I was also coughing away like mad woman which made me unable to sleep.
Then my stomach started to hurt and so did my throat.
Ate sweet and my mom thought the room stink, but I kept quiet.
Then finally, I was able to sleep at 7am plus.
But who knows, I woke up at around 11am plus.
And I couldn't sleep back , neither am I tired nor feel like heading back to sleep.

So yeah , woke up and I'm still awake now.
Didn't take any naps in the afternoon and I didn't even yawn.
Maybe I did, but I wasn't feeling tired either.
I wonder what did I eat to make me stay awake for so long.
Usually I would be dead tired and keep yawning away.
Then I would lie down on my bed and I would immediately doze off.
Something must be wrong eh. But nevermind .

This is the last week of my holiday, before school starts.
Meaning this is the Major Project Report and Poster week.
All the best for me . Hope I won't procrastinate.
Already planned what to do and I kept my weekends free.
Cause I need my last break before I go back .
I want a longer holiday, I wanna play and rest more.
But well, time flies and will never stop or pause.
So, yeah. Gonna go back and continue my report now.

Mata ashite ne (not sure)
♥ thk.

-

BEHBEH.

Koni-ji-wa.

2011-10-14T22:56:00.003+08:00

HAHA HELLO, yeah nobody visits anyway.
I'm still posting, cause I'm bored.
Currently doing my report but not making a lot of progress.
Been watching Gintama these few days.
Can't wait for the episode where the characters are being ranked.
Watched it somewhere on youtube, but can't remember the episode number.
Can't wait to see new characters too, cause they appeared somewhere on a poster.
Just watched till the episodes where Kagura's brother appeared.

Besides watching Anime, baked some cookies too.
Yep again, but don't really taste that as good as previous time though.
But yeah, hope my friends like them ):
(My mom keep nagging or complaining to me that the ones I baked are too sweet.
My brother said it, and my mom deliberately wants me to know.
Like I know it's too sweet for you, but it's just nice for me.
Like who don't like to eat sweet chocolate chip cookie?
It's not like I'm making some almond cookie or dark chocolate cookie.
C'mon, those cookies need to be sweet. I ain't eating biscuit man.)

Cya soon, those people reading, doubt so though.
Mata ashite ne.

♥ thk.

-

2NE1 ♥ !!

Dattebayo !

2011-10-07T21:55:00.005+08:00

Seto Koji ♥ hehehehehehehehehe .
(The one wearing white sleeve shirt :B)

Yeah, I find him so cute, LOL. But one bad thing is..
(He kinda look like one of my classmates I just realise -.- but of course this classmate isnt cute)
Anyway, spent almost the whole of my day today watching Naruto, or rather catching up.
Then nothing much happened. Wanted to touch on my report but..
Still no motivation and I would only end up doing something else.
Soon I guess, by next week I will touch it. Should also think of my poster too.

And I'm still delaying my blogskin, have got no inspiration aye.
Will find one soon I guess, I don't know.

& Yeah, kinda out of words what to post for now.
- I still love my cookies, no matter how many people say it's too sweet. ♥.
(Can't wait for my Pancake from Macs later in the morning, woohoo!)

Yep, guess this is all, I'm so sorry, to whoever is reading this though I doubt anyone will come back.
So, Mata ashite ne !

♥ thk .

I can only smile and tell myself everything's fine, no matter how much it hurts inside me.

My Mind is In & Out .

2011-10-06T19:33:00.002+08:00

-Am a NintendoCapriSun fan ;)

Hai there, I'm feeling bored as usual.
Have got almost nothing to do these past few days.
Especially after my internship.
The only thing I've done is to rush my report which was due last friday.
And baking cookies yesterday. (Guess it was quite successful)
So now, everytime I pass by the kitchen, I will see the cookies I baked.
And I feel like eating them, but is either I already ate it awhile ago or I just ate my meal.
They look so tempting to me, what the hell. I feel like eating them now mann..

But anyway, guess I have time to blog now, even though there's nothing much for me to post about.
Just trying to slot this blogging habit back to my schedule since I'm utterly bored these days.
Who knows I might pause again once school starts.
Speaking of school, I only have 2 weeks of holidays left. Which means..
I only have 2 weeks left to finish up my Final Year Project report.
I don't like this man, I don't like this uneasy feeling whenever I know I have to present.
Especially wearing formal and hafta speak super formally.
If not, minus here minus there, waste my effort for trying so hard to get a good grade.
But still, I also hope it ends quickly, begone with this cruel and irritating module.

So yeah, there goes one weekday for me.
Finding things to do everyday, when apparently none interests me.
Tsk, maybe I'll go change my blogskin and edit(do) my banner soon.

Mata ashite ne (yes, tomorrow.)
♥ thk

As usual, the crapping part at the back .
But wait, nothing's really coming out from my mind right now .

The end of my assumed hell/doom/fun .

2011-09-18T00:16:00.002+08:00

Yep, it is gonna end soon, my internship .
On friday , 23rd Sept.
But this means I hafta rush both my reports .
One with 1 week due and the other with a month due.

Gahhhh .
Anyway, so it should be confirmed that it is migraine I am having .
Affects adults around 30s to 40s , like how old am I now .
Oh well . She only say and ask why I didn't tell her .
Now that she know, she never even do anything .
Maybe the doctor got his own opinion, dry eyes .
But the thing is since young I already had this .
I hope it doesn't worsen . Having phobia of crescent shape stuffs already .
Gets me the feeling of having a headache everytime I see it -.-

So, nothing much happened .
Trying to enjoy my life while I can .
Feeling so bored that I only feel like sleeping to waste time .

I'll say bye now .
Lost my inspiration to blog .
Aka forgot what I wanted to post .

Mata ne ♥ .
GOODNIGHT !!

Significance

2011-08-17T21:32:00.002+08:00

Waiting for my headphones which is currently traveling around United States.
Guess it will finally end it's trip at Singapore this weekend . Can't wait .

Yup, can't wait .

Can't wait to disappear from this world and join my own lil world .

Just like how it is like wearing headphones .
Blasting music and thus making you can't hear anything else .
& Only your music .

Looking at how insignificant it is .
I only feel like hiding under my blanket forever .
Not literally , but just feel like running away from everything .

&

I

seriously

wanna

run

away

from

everything .

Fuck

this

shit .

Feels like depression + optimism .

Jokers .

2011-08-04T00:27:00.003+08:00

Omg hai , long time no see , don't know if anyone will read this .
It's so late now and I have not slept , tomorrow still need to wake up early .
Well , confirm gonna be sleepy like hell tomorrow , HAHA .
Don't know why , but I just feel like blogging .
Around 7 weeks more before I end attachment , seriously can't wait .
But then , Final Year Project + Attachment report have to be completed already .
Oh god , why TP has to be like this and so different from other poly .

Anyway , been real busy the past few weeks .
Working on weekends and waking up early just to go work .
Enjoying myself playing games rather than sleeping to make myself more awake .
But sleeping more in the afternoon doesn't mean I could pay back .
Still , don't know what I'm thinking .
Cause I rather have fun than sleep when I can enjoy LOL .
Yeah , hope to meet some of my friends soon .
I need my weekends to be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

Guess I'll go sleep now , HAHA . Cya people soon !!
Text me or something if ya guys still remember me , :(
A 'Hello' will do , it will be much appreciated ! :D

Goodbye ! ,
Mata ne .

-

It completely suits what I'm going through right now .
For those bitches that think they are the same when they clearly don't ,
Screw you cause ya doesn't know what's worst . ♥
Have been through those things while you assume you have been through when you actually didn't .
Exactly am as shown by other peoples' reactions while it only is inside your mind and nowhere else.
Have always been like this and always while you say and contradict your actions.
Things have rather seem to be happen more frequently here while you only had it occasionally.
Nothing rages me more than people telling me they are the same as me .
Grass may look greener on the other side but I know what I'm trying to point out at times .
Of course I'm nowhere better than them, but at least I know my limits of indirectly hurting other people.

Enough ranting , really , Thk , stop ranting .

Here comes the 2nd part of doom/hell/fun .

2011-06-05T22:27:00.001+08:00

Howdeh . My some sort of training had ended !
Not like now or today but few days back .
Too busy enjoying myself playing games that I didn't post .
Yeah , cause tomorrow my internship is starting .
Well , for 4months till somewhere around the end of September .

Even though can earn money at the same time ,
But going to Tuas every weekday isn't something I want .
Like omg so damn far . Have to wake up so early .
7.15am @ Outram Park for pick-up bus .
Oh well . Have to sleep soon also , now .
All the best for me ! For my Internship !
& also my Major Project ! I dread the stupid presentation , argh !

Goodbye peeps . See you all soon .
Who knows when I may come back .
Who knows when I have my free time for this blog .

MATA NE ! ♥ .

Crack?

2011-05-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

Finally , CPTC is coming to an end soon .
I shall love 31st May the most for the time being .
Say Farewell to the Chemical Process Training Centre .
I SHALL NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN . LOL .
But after that , is the start of my internship programme .
I wonder where will I be posted too . any chance for in-house ?
They better not regret accepting me since no interview is needed , LOL !
But hope I can earn some money to spend , first time doing full-time ?

Cause .

I WANT TO BUY A LOT OF THINGS .
Like really a lot of things for myself .
Not really like pamper myself with those stuffs .
But those that I need to change already .
I really need some money badly .
Don't wanna keep withdrawing already . Going broke .

I REALLY REGRET QUITING MY PART-TIME JOB MANZ !

So yeah , nothing much left .
Nowadays feel so , argh ! About every single thing .
Can't stop thinking aye . It really can't be solved I guess .

Oh well . Guess I'm going . Still have to go Jurong later .
Waking up @ 9am , on a Saturday . GEEZ !

Goodbye .
- Soon .

Can't wait to go back to TP .

2011-04-28T23:00:00.003+08:00

Some sort of training has started .
Something before going for attachment .
Going to Jurong Island almost everyday , how to even rest .
12pm to 8pm , from Monday to Saturday for first 3 weeks .
After that only until Friday . But not much difference also .
Going to and fro also wasted a lot of time .
Reach home also feel lethargic already , only want to sleep .

Prefer going back to Temasek Poly instead of Jurong man.
Really can't wait to go back there and study with my friends .
Not say no friends at that Jurong training , just that , ain't that close .

Guess everyday I need my 8hours sleep .
Revision on Sunday , since Tutorial is always copying answers .
All the best to me , 4th day only , I'm already dying .
Let's not blame myself only , my trainer really waste much more time than us .
Somehow , there's such a time I will start up my brain when someone's teaching .
Rather than on standby mode , couldn't get any information in .

Finding a place where I belong .

2011-04-24T01:53:00.003+08:00

One month has passed , without nothing done .
Wasting my time doing things , regretting that I could actually did better stuffs .
I couldn't blame anyone , but myself , for being such an idiot .
Thinking that I could actually enjoy in doing so .
Or maybe thinking that it could last me for long .
But I guess not , it's just another place where I don't belong at all .

Thinking back , places and moments where I actually enjoyed .
How long did it manage to last . How hard I wish it could happen again .
Of all things , of all those things . Bad things only repeat .
So how , guess it seems like there's no place where I belong to .

Needa start studying . Needa start concentrating again .
Daydreaming about nothing , unable to listen to what the other have to say .
I don't know what had changed me so much , both physically and mentally .
Of all these times , I only know I'm both good and bad in one thing .
Being so emotional that I do my best to care for people .
Being so emotional that people think I'm acting up too much .

Sincerely,
Just a self-comforting mad idiot .

I don't even know anymore .

2011-03-27T04:20:00.003+08:00

Yeah , guess I'm kinda posting something before March ends .
Guess nobody's coming back to check if I posted also .
But well it doesn't matter . Nothing ever has really ever mattered .
Too many things are going through my mind and yet it hasn't dry up .
Being so conscious and yet it back fired, maybe I shouldn't have cared about it so much .
Now, things have gotten much more worse than it ever could . Oh lucky me .
Somehow I wonder if everyone knew what I was doing .
I would really be considered as someone foolish . Even a scaredy cat too .
Ever since young or rather not that young , things have already started to change .
When I thought I could depend on my luck and hope things won't go wrong .
But I guess not , it didn't go my way . Not even a bit .
& Even with this , I'm still totally reliant on them .
Thinking that well , never mind , it's only a small matter .
Well, never thought that things would be even worse though .
It started to become an impact or rather a memorable experience .
But sadly , I chose to still depend on my luck and consider it as an impact on myself .
For so long , I never had really enjoyed unless I depend on my luck .
How foolish and stubborn of me , thinking that that would actually help .
But I never really had truly express in front of everyone .
Cause , it's gonna end soon , I think , I guess , I bet .
And as time slowly passes by , I found myself a new luck to depend on .
Maybe something better , something that would change my impact into nothing .
Started off well . But , nothing lasts forever . You can believe , but nothing will .
Instead it keeps on haunting me , hinting to myself that everything's fixed .
Nothing will change , everything will just go back to the same .
But I just keep on trying and trying , hoping that it will be good again .
And who knows . Instead it backfired again . More impacts for myself .
With this , I totally give up on trying . I won't depend on my luck anymore .
I'll just stick with my fate or whatever that is destined for me to go through .
But even if there's only one person , who will tell me that I could change things .
I really will try . I really would want to try . But they just can't stop haunting me .
Or is it that I'm too scared to receive more impacts , so I'll just run away , doing nothing .
I just hope someone tell me , what is really wrong with me , what has caused all this .
But so far , no one . Is either no one dare to or no one bothers to .

I do have a lot to say . But I guess I'll stop here .

I can't see stuffs that clearly .
I can't hear things that clearly .
I can't breathe properly .
I can't swallow my saliva properly .
I wonder what caused all that .

Goodbye , and say hello to fake folds .

Still empty.

2011-03-15T20:50:00.003+08:00

Alright , long time no post . Guess nobody's coming back here anyway.
So first thing first, not going Japan anymore.
Yes, meaning I have to rot for the rest of my days before doom comes .
All the best for me . Good luck to me .

And yeah, nothing much happened . The usual eat sleep play .
& not tagging hearts for the moment anymore . Just feeling kind of bored .
(Even though I really wish to have that Lv.26 ring)

So, see you soon . Few hours maybe , few days maybe or few weeks .
Goodbye .

-

I found my reason why .
Why am I behaving the same way towards different people .

Ukicwtiy♥ .

Ain't blaming anyone .
Just sad that I can't see any, can't realize any.

Feeling all the same back again .

Empty .

2011-03-06T16:28:00.003+08:00

Don't really feel like posting anymore .
Will post when there's a need to .
Guess there's nothing much for to write about also .
I have boring holidays . All I do is eat sleep play .

Back to tagging hearts I guess .
Goodbye .

-

Independence & Isolation .

What's that on my face ?

2011-03-02T13:35:00.002+08:00

Howdy . People and animals out there , LOL .
Well , been long since I last posted I guess .
Never had enough with those sucky random posts . :3
But then , guess I should do a proper post once a week .

So what happened the past week !? EXAMS OF COURSE .
Had one last Wednesday and Friday . Had one on Monday too .
Tomorrow's my last paper , and finally , Holidays !
But I don't know what to do on my holidays too .
Since I have already quit my work and I'm sure I will rot more .
Don't really know why I quit my work when holidays are coming .
But for sure I know I quit cause I wanna rest more before April comes .

And before all that , I still have a paper tomorrow .
And guess what , I haven't study for it yet , not even a bit LOL .
Or rather a bit , using my powerful memory . I know a bit of it LOL .
Yeahhhhhhhhh . So bored right now .

Oh and , been tagging hearts the past few days . Or rather for two days .
LOL I so pro , I feel so proud . Playing CBP on my own . One hand on each comp , LOL .
Now it's Saffron ! Yay ♥ , finally broke my old record of getting daisy ring :( .
JTWJ ♥ , :3

Alright guess I shall go do some other stuffs .
Think I just posted a sucky post also , LOL .

Goodbye ! Mata ne ♥ .

-

Couldn't stop smiling , for once .

Random post #5 : Forgotten

2011-02-27T00:49:00.003+08:00

I'll always remember what I've done for people .
Like how usually everyone would do .
But I guess not for the opposite .
Thinking you're just a tool for people to use .

Random post #4 : Insignificance

2011-02-27T00:44:00.002+08:00

Being there for someone and helping them out .
Thinking that they would actually need you at times .
But I guess , it didn't actually mean anything at all .
It didn't made much 'impact' on them to exactly remember you exist .

Random post #3 : Shiawase

2011-02-24T18:50:00.002+08:00

I hope , I pray & I wish .
There's nothing much I can do to change .
It's all in your hands and not mine .
Because I've already made my choice .

Random post #2 : Virtually

2011-02-24T18:41:00.003+08:00

'Virtuality' and Reality ,
What's their differences ?

Random post #1 : Assumption .

2011-02-24T00:47:00.003+08:00

Assuming things with what I know and see .
I make my choice and pray that I wouldn't regret .
Where at a point of time Ignorance can't be bliss anymore .
Patience and Trust isn't something everyone can easily have .
Waiting and Hoping isn't something everyone can easily do .

It's actually doesn't matter anymore .
Cya.

The examination starts.

2011-02-22T18:00:00.002+08:00

Hello fellow people reading this sentence , or post .
I wonder who still comes back and checks for updates .
But anyway, Exams are coming ! Means I'm going to burn midnight oil soon !
Yeah, not sleeping early and catching only 3hours of sleep .
I really rock manz , staying up late to study .
But then it's just because I'm procrastinating . I've no choice .
Nothing much to show off loh Thk !

& In a blink of an eye , it's already the last paper HAHA .
Well , so many things I wanna do after my exams .
Provided I've got enough money that is .
And parents willing to sponsor me if I don't , LOL .

Besides that , I've changed my blog song .
The lyrics are amazing , kinda .
& also kinda describes me . Or rather about my life , partially .
Am waiting for the whole song to fully to describe me .
Waiting and wishing for it badly , X( !
Anyway, will post when the full translation can be found .
Provided someone decided to translate for me LOL .

Guess nothing much bah . Had my last day of work yesterday by the way .
Those who come to read my posts will know bah LOL .
Since only people who talks to me frequently comes to read , D:

The usual short-term memory Thk shall stop here .
Can't remember what really happened the past few days LOL .
Or rather , to be more precised , the past week .
Alright , !

Goodbye , Mata ne ! ♥ .

-

Gjwgz wants JTWJ .

Sorry for stressing you out .
I really didn't know it would have meant another way .
I'm not blaming you or anything .
I'm just scared and afraid of stuffs from happening .
I rather be told first then be exposed to later .
Wouldn't wish or demand for more .
All I need is just you , ♥ .

I'll always be there for you .

Sadded ,

2011-02-14T21:22:00.003+08:00

Hate getting sore throat .
Meaning I'll get a flu soon .
Followed by a fever .
But then , I'll be fine after a good night's rest .
Before that , I've got tests I need to study for .
Seriously , couldn't get more unlucky .
Of course I wouldn't have the mood .
All I want now is to go and sleep .

2 quizzes with damn fucked up calculations I don't frigging understand .
Blame myself for not listening during classes .
And doing last minute revision/studying .
All I can hope now is that I could actually just pass .
If not I can just prepare to fail the quizzes .
And even fail my whole subject when Sem exams come .

Well, I of course couldn't wait for my exams to be over .
Since I may get to go overseas and say bye to those fucked up subjects .
But then before that I've to actually study for my exams .
Failing them and taking another supplementary paper isn't what I want, duh .
Studying again after you had your exams already and enjoying the holidays .
Wouldn't it be worst ? Laugh out loud .

Alright , guess I really have got no mood to do anything right now .
Wouldn't say much about the past 7 days since nothing really happened .
Or rather couldn't really think or remember what I've did in the past few days .
So anyway ,

Goodbye .
Mata ashite ne ♥ . (Maybe not)

-

It feels both right and wrong .

You can just give up on it.
Since it's already kinda impossible .

Talking to you now can only make me cry .

A different feeling, but I don't like it.

2011-02-05T12:12:00.004+08:00

HELLO . I'm actually posting today, like now LOL .
No more 1week per post. I posted within a week! HAHA .
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE ♥ .
And also , HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIMEI ♥ ♥ !

So, was quite busy the past few days . Went out for almost the whole day .
First day of CNY, slept until my relatives came, LOL .
Usually I will always wake up and wait for them to come HAHA .
After that went to my uncle's house to visit .
Sat for awhile and went to VivoCity to watch movie :D .
So many people going Sentosa to see the exhibition .
Lucky my parents aren't interested at all LOL !

So after watching , went to find places to have our dinner .
Sadly , Banquet and Kopitiam is closed .
We have to go Food Republic to eat . Screw the prices over there .
Frigging 10bucks for one bowl of bak kut teh LOL ! I think .
But the vegetables are screwed up too . So fcuking soft LOL !

After dinner , took bus home . And my toes are frigging aching .
Think my toenail too long , that's why HAHA .
Reached home, slacked, played Audition etc and slept .

Woke up and had to go down to Buangkok to visit .
Got alot of angpaos but all only like so little LOL !
Geez nevermind . Better than nothing HAHA .
After that went to NEX to walk around .
Sat down at Starbucks and something went wrong, sadded .
Left there for PlazaSing to watch our movie, It's a great great world :D .

After that went to my workplace to eat ! Beef beef beef ♥ .
Zomg damn yummy . I frigging love the sauce also .
First time my parents and aunts all say damn nice .
Never really comment anything bad about the food .
Cause usually they always like say something bad de .
This means the food is really damn nice ! :D .
Expensive but worth it ! Wooooooooo ♥ .

Went home , slacked , Audi-ed and did my stuffs , well as usual .
And then the next day, woke up and went out with Haimei !
Yeah, it's her birthday mahhhh , celebrate loooooo :D .
So met up and bought tickets . Went to eat .
I think the ramen quite nice lea , HAHA . ♥ .
After that watched out movie , I love Hong kong .
Quite funny , xD . Then.. Went to play Technika2 , one credit LOL .
Met someone and KYO- also ! Wooooo ! Long time no see .!

So after that left for work and was late for 1hour .
Cause forgot to bring apron there LOL , laughs .
Work work work , came home and SLACKED .
And now I'm here HAHA . Guess nothing much already bah !
Was typing this earlier on in the afternoon .
Had to go out so I continue at night . \O/ .
Anddddddd,

Goodbye! Mata ashita ne ♥ .

& Yay , haimei finally get to watch movie on her birthday !

-

I guess I should end this as soon as possible, and find a solution .
A solution where choices are limited to only one .
If not things wouldn't be good for the both of us .

Feeling as guilty as ever, I really don't know what to do .

Beautiful Hangover~

2011-02-01T20:06:00.002+08:00

Kimi wa my beautiful ~ Hangover ~ Hangover ~

Alright , wanted to post yesterday .
But don't know what happened which made me only type out one sentence .
BEEN LONG SINCE I LAST POSTED, SORRY. Or rather not.
Since my posts aren't that interesting or worth waiting for , HAHA .
Yeah, cold weather isn't it these few days . Think my jacket getting smelly .
HAHAHAHAHAHAH , too long never wash already , even though I never sweat .
But thennn...

YAAY , IT'S CHINESE NEW YEAR SOOOOON .
Don't know why but I'm very happy it's coming soon LOL .
At least I get to relax and not work and not do homework at home >: .
Want to die already lah . My tiredness making me feel very lazy .
So am I losing my motivation to do stuffs . D: .
But then , I think I slacked too much . There's too much anime for me to chase .
I couldn't even finish watching everything in a day . Oh well .

And hmmm , guess nothing much happened these few days .
Went out shopping for new year clothes .
Almost went crazy or had heart attacks during work LOL .
Feeling fcuking cold these few days, like duh .
Yeah, guess that's all . Kinda short term memory here .
Can't remember what happened the past 1 week LOL .
Cause there's nothing significant for me to remember about !
All were just routines and cycles everyday ! Yay ! Rofl .

Alright ,
Goodbye ! Mata ashita ne ♥ .
(Maybe I'll appear again 1week later LOLL)

-

Thinking how important you are to me .
Thinking how exactly it'll be if you were to be leaving me .
I don't know what will happen to me next .
I don't know if I'll be able to fulfill your wish .
It's like no use being it my purpose anymore .
I guess this thing will never ever be something dry .

Realizing again how things used to be and how things are still now .
I guess things will never ever change anymore .
No matter how many tries I've tried ,
No matter who's going to be the change .
The feeling shall always still be here .

Geez, I suck .

Highlight desu yo !

2011-01-22T10:36:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone , the week's ending soon once again .
Time really flies by really fast . I don't even have time to exactly shop .
Stupid screwed up schedule for my work .
Today, tomorrow, Monday and Tuesday .

Working for continuous 4 days when I'm having school .
Plus I have quiz on Tuesday . How the hell am I going to study .
Not like I don't have any other tutorials I need to do .
Somemore I won't have the mood to study frigging in the morning .
Seriously, I hope I'm not taking over people again .
At first, it's Thursday and Friday, and only those days .
I don't mind rushing down on Friday, I'm fine with it .
Now, Thursday and Friday, they don't need me anymore, why ?
Guess they see the weeks individually rather than seeing if you're working tomorrow .
Forget it, so going to slack during February .
So going to say that I'm totally not free for a lot of days , tsk .

Alright , besides brooding over that .
Kinda happy yesterday, since I get to go cut my hair .
Went to school in the morning, came home and waited for my mum to come home .
Left house around 3pm plus and complained to her about my work LOL .
Reached and started talking about how I want to cut my hair .
So, she (shall refer the saloon owner as she LOL) told me that my hair kinda looks flat .
That is if I want to cut layer or spike and everything .
So she suggest I highlight my hair !

The funny thing is , she repeat a lot of times and quite loud .
Cause she want my mother to hear . But I told her my mother won't understand .
Then my mother finally heard and keep thought highlight = gold colour .
Like of course not right . There are so many other frigging colours .
So viewed the variety of colours and picked some brown colour .
But she gave me another colour, and she only told me when I finished highlighting LOL .
So it came out to be like brownish gold or something .
For the first time , I'm like so happy LOL HAHAHAHA .
After that my aunt and mum's turn to do their hair .
Only managed to finish up everything at 8pm .
Cause after that we all going to Takashimaya :D .
Yes, with the saloon owner also :3 . My aunt's friend and my mum's new friend xD .
(Sorry uh, don't know what's the name cause she's a female not a male which is barber LOL)

Went Taka and started testing the food for the CNY exhibition :D .
Something funny happened but lazy to explain . HAHA .
Want to know then ask me loh :3 . ♥ .
After that went to Wisma to eat our dinner , at like 9pm plus LOL .

Took train home and felt very sleepy .
Bathe, washed up and lied down on my bed .
Slept at like 12am plus . Super early for the first time LOL .
So now I woke up at 10am plus and came to do my stuffs :D .
And of course blogging about my new highlighted hair ! HAHA .
Alright , guess nothing much for now .
Gonna go start brooding over having work later :( ! Just kidding LOL .
Okay ,

Goodbye ! Mata ashita ne ! ♥ .

-

It doesn't really matter what happens .
Or how things will go the way I wanted or not .
As long as I still have the chance , I'll be happy as forever .
♥

And for once , again .

2011-01-18T22:55:00.002+08:00

Howdy . No work yesterday , chionged my drawings .
Had my fun while drawing in the evening .
Paused and slacked @ Audi . Cooool much , slacky day ♥ .
After that , headed down to have dinner with my parents .

Spicy Miso Ramen FTW ! ♥ .
So going to have lots of them when I'm off to Japan (: .
Gotta find some 'nian gao' too ! Tasted them at work the last Sunday .
Captain barbecue-ed them and tastes super nice . We added sugar too .
Taste like some muachee :B .

And anyway, after dinner, went back home and watched some tv .
Then continued with my drawings until like 12am .
Did some cropping of photos for Free Hand Drawing until like 3am, wtf ?
Yeah, so meaning, I'll have lesser time to sleep .
Woke up and feel super tired . Ate super slow also .
Cause I want to enjoy my breakfast too HAHA ♥ .

Packed bag , left house , reached school late .
Haimei never come to school again , because wake up late . Not good ah ! x:
Had a 1hour 30mins lesson, went to makan, and frigging guess who I saw ?!
Yes, none other than that someone that somehow likes my cow shirt so much .
But didn't bother too much, since it doesn't really matter anymore .
Had my lunch with Huiyi, did my homework and went to library to print something.

Had lessons again, couldn't tahan for the first hour.
Keep want to sleep, and also keep dozing off for the whole of 1hour .
Break record already. I even manage to doze off after sitting up straight LOL .
First time sia, really break record already. Really damn tired :( .
So after that, had Free Hand Drawing until around 5pm.

& finally can go home already, HUAT AR !
Reached home , wanted to go use the toilet but my dad want to comb his hair .
Well because he just cut his hair and reached home too . So, yeah..
I actually doze off LOL . I really damn tired lah . :S .

Woke up, bathed, ate dinner and watched tv .
After that , Anime-ed, did some homework and listened to 987fm :D .
Then came to blog , don't feel like doing tutorial anymore :P .
Guess I gonna sleep quite early today , hopefully ? Haha .

So hmmmm , before I go , post about one more thing .
So looking forward to the next few days ! WOOO .
Actually only two days bah . Tomorrow and Friday .
Thursday , Saturday and Sunday , I'm working .
Guess I don't have much time like last week , sad die me .
Anyway , for tomorrow , going Chinatown with my parents !
Yes ! More testing of food , yum yum . Even though I hate the crowd .
Oh well , kinda expected , let's just hope I can find my shoes too ,
And also that no one makes me pissed off ! LOL . :D .
Last but not least ,as for Friday, I'm going to go cut my fringe ! YAY .
And trim my hair too of course , wooooo , so happy .
Cause I don't really like my fringe now :3 . Heeeeeee ♥ .

Alright , guess that's all .
So,

Goodbye ! Mata ashita ne ♥ !

-

For once , I am actually able to hear his voice again after so long .
But now , I don't know why , I hope he could smile . Weird .

Guessed you've changed . Changed a lot too .
Even though I don't really like the you in the past .
Which made me angry for a lot of times before .
But now, you making me pissed off more .
Well, cause I don't like you even more .
So what's that you're doing ?
Something that you don't like people doing ?

That's good Thk. Pause and think for a longer time before you do anything .
It's a good practice .

I don't like my MOM! shirt anymore .

2011-01-13T23:59:00.003+08:00

Yes , I don't know how but that shirt definitely got cursed .
Thought that I wouldn't see him today , that's why I wore it .
BUT SADLY, when I am already going home , leaving school .
SOMEONE FAMILIAR APPEARED , Booooooooooo .
-complains-

So , very free today . No need to go work LOL . RELAXING YO ! ♥ .
Watched anime , did my stuffs . Watched tv too , shiok :D .
Guess gonna try to sleep early today . Hopefully .

Exciting weekends ! WOOOO . This week , not sure yet .
But next week , gonna go cut hair or out with parents .
Hopefully going around too to look for my clothes , YAY !
I wanna buy boots lah , bring Japan wear and never wear them at Sg LOL .
Teeheehee , looking very forward :D .

And, shall go download some animes for tomorrow's break now .
So,

Goodbye ! Mata ashita ne ♥ .

-

May things go well .
Hoping that promises won't be broken anymore .
So I'll trust your words , somehow , for now .
Though it doesn't really matter ,
As long as the outcome isn't bad .

What for doing so like what you said .
You thought so because you can't do it .
Try umpteen times and fail umpteen times .
Curious how long can you actually stick to that .
Just so fake , so damn fake .
I don't find that being mature at all .

Kid . I really don't like you .

I'll be back , maybe .

2011-01-12T00:20:00.004+08:00

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA .
Don't know why but it has been long since I had a relaxing evening LOL .
Yeah when apparently the past Saturday I was staying at home .
Not doing anything but watch videos like I will die on Sunday .
Guess my memory and sense of time is getting much worse .

ANDDDDDDD !

I wanna cut my fringe LIKE SOON . Hate the long short long short part .
Like so frigging hard to comb and the wind always blow until I look like siao zhar bor .
Yes, I've just cut my hair like before my exams . 4weeks ago ? On a Saturday .
HAHA , last time like 3months then go cut , cause too long already .
Now 1month only , can don't cut . I just frigging feel like cutting HAHAHA .
Been wasting a lot of money these few weeks :3 .
But my fringe can almost totally cover my nose already LOL . ♥ .

& BAHHHHH , Chinese New Year is coming .
And I haven't frigging buy my new year clothes .
Confirm T-shirt + Pants again , boooooo .
May I add boots in as my dress code for this year ? LOL .
Shall find time to head out to buy them soon :( !

But in order to find time , I've got to like , not work so much anymore .
But lesser work means lesser pay D: !
Maybe I shouldn't be greedy and just accept that it's already very high .
Latest , work until around march . Earliest , last day on Feb .
Yes , shall see how it goes and whether how good I will do outside :( .

& besides that , guess nothing much le bah .
Shall frigging look forward to how well I draw for my portrait of Phoenix ♥ .
Yeah , it's for the frigging Free Hand Drawing project .
Don't know if they accept a portrait of a doll that is . HAH .

Okay, guess I'll go watch more anime now LOL .
Instead of sleeping when I'm quite tired right now , tch .
Thk never fail to pick the wrong choice .
But she actually did pick the correct choice before around November .
4-5continuous days of not touching the computer , my very record , ♥ .

So,

Goodbye ! Mata ashita ne , ♥ .

-

Nothing beats it .
All left is to only apply it .

Locked up .

Bad night , I suppose .

2011-01-08T17:17:00.002+08:00

For the first time , we are going home at 11am .
Because there's no tutorial and lab lesson after 11am :D .
Shiok not ! HAH ! So I had a relaxing Friday afternoon and evening .
Ate , watch some show and went to sleep . Dead tired ): .
Woke up , ate , continue watching and did my own stuffs .
Of course Audi-ed and suddenly things appeared wrong to me .
Oh well , just another 2705 , nothing much nothing much .
It would be my 3rd year anniversary this year . I think ?

WHAT'S WITH THE MOSQI , BITE BITE BITE , ARGH .
Scratch until whole leg going red soon -.-

Anyway, nothing much happened .
Except that a lot of new animes are out .
As seen from people uploading so many episodes 1 yesterday and today .
Meaning I got more animes to chase LOL . Though will only chase the nice ones .

So, today's the last day I can do my stuffs .
Tomorrow got staff lunch and I've got no time to do it tomorrow .
Unless I gonna come back from work and do until don't what time again , like last week .
Oh well, Thk's losing her motivation for school already . Can't blame her , lol .
Alright , shall stop here now . :D .

& my eyelids are still folded in a way I have 'triple' eyelid .
My mum say I sleep too long , that's why it got sore and get another fold .
Who cares what she said , it's more than enough that I know she's wrong . Tch .

Goodbye .
Mata ashita ne ♥ .

-

It has been quite long .
Since the previous one didn't count ,
Cause I forced myself to and it only lasted less than 5minutes .
So how do I feel after being able to do so without forcing ?
I regret for making myself believe things are like that .
I regret for hurting myself again and again even though I know it is just a lie .
I regret for not stopping myself which made me fall into the trap again .
But I'm glad the old Thk is back even though it hurts more .
Because the new one's too hard to cheer up .

Happy new year , :D .

2011-01-01T15:26:00.003+08:00

(Sentence structure is frigging bad in this post , pardon me. )

The year of 2011 . Where things will be different from 2010 .
And it's all the way back to January .
So what will happen in this new year ?
Of course , my attachment which starts around June .
And the training that starts around Mid April .
NAFPA which I don't know starts when .
With quizzes and exams upcoming in the next 2 months .
I don't like school D: . Who likes anyway ?

And of course there would be stuffs I look forward to .
Chinese New Year , more outings with friends .
Last but not least , going Japan again around April .
Hope I will at least enjoy since I'm the only teenager going .
Everyone's like 50plus or 60plus and my cousin's already 30plus .
Generation gap ! I think I will get pissed off again by them .
Me going overseas, I never fail to get pissed . Hais .

Last but not least things that I need to keep in mind .
Tons and tons of things I've noted down .
But for sure, I'll repeat my same mistakes again .
Or forget that I actually made a promise to myself for this year .
Don't know what's my mind occupied with .
Always seem to forget and not concentrate on things .
Especially when my friends are talking .
Don't know why I can nod , showing them I understand .
When I basically never really hear the whole sentence or story .

Well , I'm deteriorating a lot . Very much .
Don't know what's happening to me . ):

Alright , hafta do my school stuffs already .

Goodbye , Mata ashita ne . ♥ .

-

Can't think about it further .
Afraid of making myself suffer more .
Since things rarely have happy endings for me .
Or rather , have things go the way I want it to go before ?
Guess it's better to not give myself high hopes .

Fushiawase - 不幸せ

2010-12-30T23:49:00.002+08:00

Somehow , I don't really like my previous post LOL .
Sounded so , wtfbbq in it . But I'm really flaring . Haishz .
Feel so weird these few days . Well, of course .
Been thinking too much already, since 2010 is ending soon .
And there comes the feeling again . Not wanting 2011 to come .
Why does Thk's always so afraid to move on ?

And hmmm, forgot what I wanted to post already .
HAHA , super short term memory . x.x
Or maybe something like this..

Been feeling very tired these few days .
Still don't want to sleep early . How contradicting .
I want more time , I need more time D: .
Why is the holiday so short . And why do I have to go school tomorrow .
Haishz, very lazy ah . And I've got so many things to do by 3rd Jan .
School stuffs basically , everything . Think 2 days is not enough loh .
Some reflection or write up for APEL2 , bah .
Draw up my stuffs for my CDS and buy things . (Have to head out again)
Compiling of things for my project which is due 3rd Jan.
I wanna sit in front of my comp and enjoy videos .
Guess I can't , if I continue to slack . I won't be able to sleep on 2nd Jan :( .
WHY WHY ! MISS WHY !

For now , I shall wait until tomorrow afternoon then start doing bah .
Well, hopefully I will after I ate my lunch at home and came back from school .
But confirm go and take nap and not do . Then hafta go for work again .
Though I get to rest the next few days but , I wanna slack ! D: .

Haishz haishz haishz , shall go do my things now beh .
Goooooodbyez . Mata ashita ne ♥ .

-

No one knows or one knows rather than everybody knows .

Eeee, ewwww, booooo !

2010-12-28T00:45:00.004+08:00

BY THE WAY , THIS IS MY FRIGGING 400TH POST ! YAY ♥ .

Hello , posting twice a day . What the hell am I thinking .
Well, it's kind of unusual . Since I never posted more than two times a week .
Now I'm frigging posting twice a day , LOL .
But actually, I got nothing much to say in this post .
Just kinda feel bored and went crazy a few minutes ago .
Yeah, I actually went to hop hop some few blogs .
From people I love the most to people I frigging I wanna kill/slap/shred most :D .

(Let me chill out a bit , chill out section starting from , HERE )

OH MANZ . I frigging dislike that bastard/bitch/sucker/fucker .
HAH . Seriously , I'll never be able to stand it/him/her .
Like how someone I know dislikes someone I know too .
Yeah, so now I'm hating someone (I don't really know) that that someone knows .
Maybe it/he/she did nothing towards me ,
And let me emphasize, is did , I never say it/he/she NEVER SAY anything to me .
& FUCK LAH . What god damn attitude is that .
Can't believe it/him/her actually made friends . (Who the fcuk want to be jealous of it/him/her?)
Guess it/his/her fam suits it/his/her personality . SO IT/HE/SHE JOINED !
No wonder . Ahhhh , clap clap clap . Pui lah =.=

(End of chill out section, even though I'm still burning , (: )

So, guess I'm gonna edit my blogskin for a bit tonight .
While waiting for my Bakuman Ep13 to be subbed , OH YEAH , \m/ !

Goodbye, Mata ashita ne ! ♥ .
(I actually did came back LOL , somehow it's already tomorrow :3 )

-

CHICKEN ASSHOLE !

Guess I'm actually feeling a lil happy at that point of time .

Actually, I guess it doesn't really matter anymore .
I just have to suffer through , even after complaining .
Well, apparently it is all my fault with what I've known .
I never take the proper actions to make things go right .
And it's always only me that think of others differently .
Guess that's why I've been always feeling that way .
So, nothing much really matters now .
For that the year is ending soon , once again .
I've gotta list down my stuffs already, again .
To throw , to change and to keep .

A new year , another Raspberry Vodka it shall be !

Merry, Christmas ?

2010-12-27T15:33:00.003+08:00

Yes, Belated Merry Christmas people . :D .
Been working almost every night ever since 18th December .
Except though Christmas Eve though , the only day I can rest .
Upcoming day for me to rest is Thursday, Saturday and Sunday .

Anyway, been wanting to post in the past few days .
But feel kinda lazy so skipped . And now I've got the time !
Though actually not, feel like taking a nap or watch my anime now .
Nevermind , post and MIA a few days again LOL .
Work work work , earn earn earn , spend spend spend .
I want rest rest rest , slack slack slack , eat eat eat !

So hmmm , nothing much happened the past few days , except working .
Didn't really go out except on Christmas , watched Movie with Sandra .
Hoping to go out more as day passes by . Well , hopefully .
For now, got time to stay at home = Anime/Audi .
Gonna keep Technika2 for until March bah .
Or rather I already lost my interest in it le , LOL !
It might be a good thing . But this means I will buy more cash, HAHA .
Oh, I just realised something . I frigging forget about the double value .
It was on Christmas day itself , I should have topped up . !!! D: .
If only I saw the board and remembered when I passed by Cine's arcade T.T
Oh well nevermind , sob sob .

Guess I shall go do my other stuffs already aye . !
Omgawd I frigging can't wait for Bakuman and Fairy Tail to be out tonight , ♥ !!

Goodbye , mata ashita ne . (I won't be here tomorrow, LOL)
♥ .

-

The feeling is back .
A feeling nobody will ever understand .
Because they will never know how much it means to me .
It's of no use appreciating the past .

I do not have so much lives to spend .
I do not have so much space to stab .

Oh! My Goddess , Soom . (:

2010-12-16T22:42:00.003+08:00

Haimei made me cry ! -wipes tears off-
(I know I'm kinda late in reading but still, xD ! ♥ )
My memories are happy memories , but they make me sad :( .

And anyway, what a rare chance of me to post on a Thursday !
Not that I'm free or have something to talk about .
Just feel like posting before I start studying for my paper tomorrow .
Yeah, haven't really started studying since I reached home at 4pm plus .
Of course, Thk always procrastinate till she can't any further .
But, fancy me studying so hard last semester .
I think I kind of studied earlier on, but I slept at like 3-4am for 9am paper .
What about now ? I don't frigging give a damn , I'm sleeping at 2am .
Even though it's 9am paper or I've only just started studying .
(Psst , Thk had changed a lot. )

Today's afternoon paper more zai .
I never even really go and study the theory .
All I did was GO THROUGH the calculations part .
I just had a feeling that I no need to be afraid of the paper .
Or rather that I am not afraid that I would actually fail .
And luck's on my side ! How ?
The term test paper distributed had it's answer sheet attached behind .
So everyone started browsing through and Tada !
So, I've been wondering to myself, is this why I don't frigging care about studying ?
Tsk tsk , Thk has always been afraid of sleeping if she never study anything .
She thinks too much and will keep thinking and be unable to sleep .

But anyway, I think it's the holiday mood and drama's fault .
Been chasing drama and videos and anime these few days .
HAHA , don't know what the hell I'm thinking too . \:

All I feel now is that somehow everything around me has changed .
Or rather I had changed my views of perspective on things around me .
& I wonder , if your view changes for people like how you start to like songs .
For the first time you listened to the song, and hmmm .
Don't feel like listening it for the 2nd time , not that really nice .
But somehow, you managed to listen to it for the 2nd time and so on .
& guess what ? You find that the song is actually nice for the first time .
Of course there are songs that you find it nice from the start .
Say that it means how you actually became friends when both of you first met .
As for finding the songs nice after listening it for a few times, will it happen to us?
(Lazy to explain, guess those interested ones can go and think what's the it , LOL)

Again , I don't really make much sense again .
Whatever, I don't care . HAHAHAHAH, Okay .

Goodbye , Mata ashite ne ♥ , (:

-

I wonder how people are actually satisfied as long as the other side is happy .
For me, of course I can be satisfied for some people .
But for a few , I can't .

Oh manz .

2010-12-14T01:03:00.002+08:00

Hello folks . Long time no seez . I guess .
4papers more to go . Plus my 1st project for my CDS to be done by Friday night .
Gotta head down to school for 2hours for CDS on a Saturday morning .
Oh well, thinking about it already bores me . Booooo .
Somemore at night I've gotta work . I doubt I'll be able to slack that night .
Confirm very busy and I'll go crazy and won't be able to even stop not doing anything .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .

Can't even rest during my holidays .
Though I know almost everyone will have their projects .
Doesn't really seem like holiday to them .
But I'm almost working everyday at night , resting for only like 4 nights .
Out of 14 days, don't know if I should be happy that I'm occupied or what .
But aye , too bad 3 part-timers are going overseas .
That's why the remaining free ones have to do more :( .

But nevermind , work more means got more money for SHOPPING !
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO . But I don't know what to buy .
Except for spending money on Technika 2 , heh heh heh .
The machines are actually online and cards are being sold .
Most probably will try to go and get one on Friday .
Hopefully won't be sold out and hafta wait for the 2nd 'batch' .
But I doubt there will be so many people who will go and buy .
Afterall, they should be more interested in other games . LOL .

Guess nothing much happened these few days again .
The usual boring Thk routines . Nothing's interesting .

Guess that's all for today .
STUDY MADNESS TILL FRIDAY . ♥ .
Actually not , should be , NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO . :3

So,

Goodbye !
Mata ashita ne ♥ .

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& even though it hurts so much .

I know I can recover immediately .
But to think of stuffs that will help me eventually ,
I need much more time than a day .
And the worst thing is,
I'll forget what I've thought about .

2010-12-06T01:11:00.000+08:00

Howdy, using hp again . And using the post to help me.
Nothing much happened. All I know is I'm very tired now.
And I wanna frigging sleep.

So,
Goodbye.
Mata ashita ne, ♥ .

Csas task 30
Ps&lp meeting & research
Pci lab report
Ps&lp quiz on tues
Copy pci

As scary as it seems.

2010-12-04T00:29:00.003+08:00

Come to think of it, everyone's like changing their display pictures in Facebook .
Changing it to their favorite childhood cartoon, so I was talking to myself .
Thinking about what I've watched and I liked which the most .
But apparently, being Thk, I didn't really watch that much Tv last time .
I did but couldn't really remember what I watched .
Only managed to remember when I see their changed display pictures .
So why I didn't watch Tv that much that I couldn't remember ?
I played MMORPG since like 10years ago, when I'm like Primary 2 ?

Not sure if is really at the age of 8, cause I played damn lot of games .
Yes, when I'm still studying in primary school .
Guess it's the influence from my brother , or rather looking at him play .
Cause all I remember was either at the age of 8 or 10 .
And I know that I started playing Gunbound around Primary 5 and 6 .
So since I played quite long and with other games ,
I assumed that I started playing when I was only 8 .

Come to think of it , it's kind of scary . I was like so young , LOL .
If there's ever going to be 'Your favorite childhood game' instead of cartoon,
I'm sure to remember very clearly what I played last time . HAHA .
10years of gaming , it really made me look like an Otaku .
No wonder my parents dislike me using comp that much last time .
Restricting only to 1hour or 2hours per day or more during weekends.
And slowly, it became Friday and Saturday only . HAHA . ♥ .

Alright , that's all . Term tests coming soon .
Gonna go crazy very very soon . It always happens .

So, Goodbye . Mata ashita ne . ♥ .

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I don't know how am I going to continue on , if that day came .
There's no way to avoid and no way to not ___ .

Omfg so chubbbbbby LOL.

2010-11-29T12:48:00.000+08:00

HELLO. Blogging in school using my handphone's browser :3 .
HAIMEI'S BESIDE ME. Why she so tired. LOL.
Nothing much happened yesterday. Except that I went to work.
Gonna get my pay real soon WOOO. So happy 8D .
Shall buy many many clothes yo HAHA .

And also recently went through my facebook's news feed.
Someone posted , asking why people lie . Why can't they be honest .
Well, before you ask why , why not pick first .
If lies exist to give you temporary happiness,
While truth exists to give you permanent sadness.
Which one would you pick ?
And well also, the truth is. Life is never fair .

I think I'm getting from bad to worse .
And the good thing is, there's none near me .
If not, things will get really really bad .

:$

Okay time for class.
Goodbye ! Mata ashita ne , ♥ .

Out of ideas today, Meh.

2010-11-27T16:01:00.002+08:00

HARLOH . IT'S SATURDAY . And I've been slacking like mad these few days .
Procrastinating again whenever there is the chance .
Ain't gonna change if this continues , freak you Thk .

Anyway, yesterday went out with Sandra to Yuki Yaki .
My first visit again, and think I ate quite much more .
Since I'm not a very big eater and it's BUFFET .
Yes, this shows that I'm getting a bigger stomach which will make me fatter .
Gonna take a lot of frigging Tartar sauce the next time I go there to eat LOL . ♥ .

Guess nothing much happened these few days .
School school school , work work work .
Getting tired of this boring routine soon .
Where's my entertainment !? Bah , I want to sms people .
But always after awhile there's nothing to talk about .
I'm such a fail . Meh.

Alright so, using the post again to remind myself .
And after that, Imma find things to do . Or go and take a nap .
Goodbye . Mata ashita ne ♥ .
(I doubt I'll post tomorrow, LOL)

WHAT TO DO BY SUNDAY . Which is tomorrow .
1. UO2 Tutorial
2. Copy PCI into Notebook
3. Check Prelabs
4. FreeHandDrawing outline
5. PCI, PS&LP, PIA Tutorial
6. CSAS3 Task 30
Guess should be all .
Quizzes :
1. UO2 Lecture Quiz and PIA Lecture Quiz (Wed)

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You irritate me .

There's something different these few months .

2010-11-22T23:02:00.002+08:00

Has been long since I last typed out . Read up my past stuffs just now .
Comparing to how often I am typing right now , somehow it really got different .
Guess somehow my Mother has a very big part in making this difference .
Afterall, I never really appreciate stuffs for that long before .

The other part would be the stuffs I did .
Lesser contacting the things that caused me to typed .
Guess I found my own way already .
Instead of thinking that the things would help instead .
Though it still happens at times, but not so frequently anymore .
Wonder if I should be happy or sad because I don't feel like myself .
Oh well, who knows I may return to what I'm like few months back .

Anyway, been slacking alot these few days .
Delaying my school work when I've got the chance .
Doing last minute work isn't what I want this Semester .
Gotta buck up and stop getting distracted . :S
After this, shall continue studying for my quiz already .
Hope that I'll get my pictures done by tomorrow too .
Though it's unlikely that I'll get scolded cause I don't have enough .

& Ah-hah , thought of something amazing .
Shall carry out that idea very very soon . :D .
Though at times it may be quite troublesome, but who cares .

Alright, off to study .
Goodbye, Mata ashita ne , ♥ !

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What to do when the opposite party completely doesn't know how you feel due to their actions . Laughs .

MEHHHHHHHHHH. What ?

2010-11-20T13:50:00.003+08:00

I RAGED, I FLARED, I LAUGHED .
How ridiculous can they be ?!
Okay, actually I don't know what I'm talking about .
Cause I'm kind of mad right now . Yeah, real mad .
Anyway,

HELLO . What have you guys been up to !? LOL .
Yeah still mad . Hmmmm, I've got the time now.
So Imma blogging. But don't know what's there to blog about .
How about talking about that I've actually Audi for 2hours plus yesterday .
I become a biantai lao auntie while Sandra become a more biantai lao auntie, LOL .
As the 2 biantais hunt for victims, they found a lot of 'Joke of the day' .
What's wrong with laughing at people's English? HAHA .
But oh well, there's only 1 victim though, we only found one. :(
I think we sort of lost 2 on the way, LOL !! HAHAHAHAHA .

So basically, nothing much happened to me the past few days .
Oh yeah, yesterday went to watch Harry Potter with my parents .
(Feel like sleeping throughout the movie, yeah I know I suck.
The movie isn't really that boring I guess, from other peoples' point of view)
So, saw many people went out with their friends yesterday .
& I'm stuck with my parents instead , :( . So sad . LOL Just kidding .
Better than I rot at home and watch my Youtube videos .
Though I should really start doing my homework, like now .
Instead of blogging knowing that I do not have the time, HAHA .
Okay sorry, I'm really very mad today, :( .

Before I close this webpage, let me use this post for awhile . Teehee.
To do list :
1. PS&LP Powerpoint slides
2. PCI Lab
3. UO2 Tutorial
4. Copy PCI into notebook
5. CAN I SLEEP? LOL . I'm seriously mad.
6. Spy on brother chatting on iTouch . (I'M SERIOUSLY MAD TODAY LOL)
7. PS&LP, PIA, PCI Tutorial
8. FREEHANDDRAWING PICTUES !!

Quizzes :
1. PCI Lecture(Tues) and Tutorial(Wed) Quiz
2. PIA Lecture(Thurs) Quiz
3. PS&LP Tutorial(Wed) Quiz

Okay I'm done. Hopefully, not sure if there are more..
Yeah, guess for this week that's all, hooray .
So,

Goodbye ! Mata ashita ne ♥ .

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Tell me it isn't gonna end up like that .
Tell me that all I need is time .

I'm waiting for that day instead.

2010-11-15T14:44:00.005+08:00

Nope , I won't be waiting for the day to come after today .
Not the day I was previously waiting for .
I should be waiting for another kind of day to come instead .
& also trying my very best . Thk gotta move forward !!!
That day will come, that day will come . Nothing is impossible .

♥

And my poor hands, the skin is peeling off :( .
Plus I've been scalding my fingers too.
2 at middle finger and a bigger one at my ring finger .
Hais, my hands look so scary now .
Either it's way too shiny or too flaky . Dammit :( !

So, I've posted consecutively ! Only for 2 days, LOL .
Well cause I got time to post and don't know what to do before heading to work .
& my Mum sort of broke her promise again , ;cry .
She said she gonna steam the peanuts today, so I can eat before heading to work :( .
The previous time was she said she gonna cook dinner for me before heading to work .
Both times like this, she just disappear when I came home .
Most probably go out with my father bah . D: !

But nevermind, I won't starve to death anyway, HAHAHA .
Yeah not starve, but get damn hungry easily nowadays .
Guess my appetite's back, needa stop eating so much .
The night market food killed me for the past few weeks already D: .
Keep losing and gaining weight LOL . ♥ .

Okay, nothing much to say already I guess .
Gonna laugh like mad woman or be irritating like a bitch nowadays .
This is my personal way of ____________ I guess .
Hafta stop thinking about those stuffs .
Though looking at stuffs related to it sure gonna make me think about it .

So,

Goodbye !
Mata ashita ne ♥ .

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Clueless. Helpless. Hopeless.

I need my tears damn badly right now .
Have they dried up ? Cause I can't cry that easily anymore .

Making changes and adapting to it .

2010-11-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

Work work work work work work work .
Uses up my time and making myself to be more hardworking .
Yeah, starting to do tutorials and pre-lab more often now .
As compared to my previous 2 semesters . Been long since I've done them , LOL .
Off with a good start, hope I won't stop doing again .

And besides working , thought of a lot of stuffs too .
Learned and seen a lot of stuffs around me too .
Somehow I understand why people hate their life so much .
They can only see what they don't have and people have .
But then, I kind of dislike how they complain about their life so much .
If they wanna compare, then compare everything .
Don't only complain what they don't have and keep whining like they have nothing .

& geez, I don't know why I'm feeling this way,
Though I know there could be another point of view .
I don't know how to explain, cause I find that they are very attention seeking .
But the thing is, if they don't 'seek attention', then how will other people know .
Well maybe because the way almost everyone out there sees me,
Is completely different the way I see myself .
(Since the only person that understands you most is yourself .)

Alright , shall go do my homework and catch my anime already !
Still got research I need to do by tonight . Tsk tsk .

Goodbye , Mata ashita ne . ♥ .

What I hate the most.

2010-11-03T01:14:00.001+08:00

The day I realize we are actually not meant to be together.
The day I realize that it's actually all over.
The day I get a heartache because of someone I love.
The day I get a noseblock because of crying over someone.
The day I don't know what I should do for the next minute.
The day I don't know how am I going to forget the unhappy past.
The day I have to start accepting the truth.
The day I have to give up on someone dear to me.
The day I will tell myself that it's all fine when it's not.
The day I will tell myself that I'm strong when I'm not.

How can someone handle all that in a day.

I will miss my Mum .

2010-10-31T20:07:00.003+08:00

My mum went overseas this morning .
Sent her off around 8am after arriving at the airport at like 7am .
Now I just realized I cannot share my stories for a week .
I gotta bottle up till she come back , -cries- .
Maybe I shouldn't have told her to decide on her own whether to go or not LOL .

Ahhhh , one week of ..
1. I have to wake up early on my own , with the help of ALARMS .
(Well , always is my mum wake me up so yeah , D: )
2. I have to make or buy my own breakfast .
(Nothing much about this, should be okay . )
3. I have to wash some of the laundry .
(Omg , I don't know when I should wash and dry . GAH . )
4. It will be so damn quiet not talking to my mum .
(Cause I always share my day with her while she share hers D: )
Like come on Thk , it's only a week :( ! Love dai my Mum ♥ .

And I just realized too , that my this url don't know use how long le .
Usually I keep changing , longest was like less than a year .
This url already more than a year le , 38x posts ! Wowz .
Hehe , maybe I will change my Url soon .
& of course , no need relink , I won't remove this blog , HAH .

So nothing much happened this few days .
Worked and find it kinda interesting LOL .
Opposite of boring , like those data entry work .
But the thing is I hafta stand and bend down quite a number of times .
Don't know why but I find the sink a bit low and my back aches .
Hmmm , see how bah . Who knows I may complain and quit in a month LOL .

And also managed to decrease my time of using the computer .
Am losing a lot of interest for anime . Don't know why .
I rather rot than watch my anime . Maybe find the storyline kinda boring .
Something is wrong with me . Something is wrong with me !
And I'm also watching more Tv than last time . COOL !?
I wonder what happened to me . HAHAHAHHA .
I find being able to online in Msn on phone made me use less comp ? :S .

Other than realizing stuffs today .. I guess nothing much else happened .
Or you guys wanna know I went to Jurong Island yesterday ?
Yeah , now you know . Can say kinda boring but at least we learned quite some stuffs .

So.. Guess I'm ending here . HAH .
(Don't miss my posts , I will be less active again this week LOL)

Goodbye ,
Mata ashita ne ♥ .

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Si ggeu reot !

I can only hide my face and try to scream my lungs out , geez .

Single is not a status.
It's a word that best describes a person who is strong enough to live,
& enjoy life without depending on others.

Gjwg-kicwatiy !

2010-10-27T01:26:00.001+08:00

Hey yoh, blogging with my phone for today.
Kinda lazy to type, I don't know why.
I may even give up on my computer if this continues for months.
On computer to chase anime and play facebook games only LOL.
And maybe Audition during weekends if Sandra wants to play.
Kinda losing interest and hoping day ends faster.
But of course not making me busy until like mad.
Guess I got more then enough time to do stuffs.
As for resting, I've still got my habit. Sleeping at like 1am 2am.
But I think my parents won't be shocked if I never on my computer LOL.

And anyway, read something up and thought about it.
-misses a move in Audition- FML.
-dies in Maple and loses exp- FML.
-parents nagging at me- FML.
-friend ignore me- FML.
Maybe the parents one isn't that bad.
But don't know why luh, just can't stand how people use FML.
It's like just because something like this, they wanna fuck their life.
It's not like you lost your job and you went for tons of interview and nobody wants you.
Maybe, hardcore gamers sure feel that their life is fucked up if something happened.
Yeah guess so. Next time, accidently cut my finger, FML!

Alright, going off.

Goodbye!
Mata ashite ne ♥ .

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Let's leave here blank for the day .

Futuristic Imagination

2010-10-24T23:14:00.002+08:00

Eden of the East ! Gonna finish up the 2nd movie by tonight .
Or later , on my iPod ! In my air-con room ! LOL .
Nice anime , though I don't quite understand the ending .
But I think it's nice . :D . Worth the watch , worth the watch .

And I just realized I got a Tutorial with a Lecturer that nobody likes .
Our class is totally DEAD . Not really . Just that , nobody really likes him .
God bless us , till the end of the semester .

Hmmmm . Since when I lasted posted ? Two days ago .
So uh , yesterday , didn't went out . Yeah , camped at home .
Complete my Eden of the East that is , HAH .
As for today , went down and bought stuffs . And bought chicken roll .
Oh nom nom nom , LOL . ♥ .
Then Audi for like 30mins and watched tv .
Slacked and came here to blog . Gonna wait for my Pirates' workshop to be done .
Then I shall go complete my MOVIE YAY .
Yeah , no life eh . Tomorrow all the best also .
Konichiwa Sandra-san , my teacher for the day , HAHAHAH .

Alright ,

Goodbye .
Mata ashita ne ! ♥ .

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Not long , but forever .

I've got a very nice voice yo .

2010-10-22T13:59:00.003+08:00

I'm seriously going mad . & Later I'm going for interview .
SHIAT . Someone just please save me . AND I PRAY FOR GOOD NEWS .

Hmmm , been coughing like mad and making my throat sore .
My voice has been changing from time to time LOL . Smexy yo .
& school's reopening soon . Gawd , do I miss school ? Guess not .
Even though I don't really like to camp at home and stare at my computer .
But well , THK SUCKS BIG TIME SERIOUSLY , ok .

Guess nothing much happened after my birthday .
Just rotted at home and yeah . Yesterday went out to cut my hair .
Or cut my FRINGE , my long fringe . To something like bangs ?
I don't wanna admit that it is cause it's not straight, though it look kinda straight LOL .
ARGHHHHHH . T__________T .

Goodbye . ♥ .
Mata ashita ne :( .

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Yakusoku !

I LOVE CHOCOLATES .
Thk's on a chocolate frenzy .

Happy birthday to myself :D

2010-10-19T13:13:00.003+08:00

Long time no see peeps , if ya still coming back to check for my new post .
Then thanks alot ! ♥ .

So.. Last posted on 12th , 13th .. Went out with sandra at night .
Went to Takashimaya and she bought her stuffs, took bus back to Bedok .
And she went home via 168 . ;chan .

As for 14th.. I think I camped at home , so did I for 15th . I guess .
16th went to Parkway with my Mum and Aunt .
She bought her clothes and I bought a Polo tee :D .
Yay , new clothes for me ! HAHA . And also ate at Jack's Place .
Baked Fish Fillet with Cream Sauce ! ♥ . I admit I like fish alot HAHA .

And as for 17th, at night had Family dinner at TampinesMall's Pu Tien .
Ate alot of stuffs and I think this time I ate the least .
Cause they ordered quite a number of stuffs I won't eat HAHA .
Nevermind at least I can eat lesser and I think I'm getting real fat !
Cause ate a lot of fried stuffs from the Night market downstairs eh :S .

And for Monday , which is yesterday . Went to Tampines to watch movie .
Ate a bit also before and after movie . Parents went home and I went to Technika .
Fancy them putting Pump it up in between the 2 Technika machines .
What a super bad idea . But oh well , played and left for home .

Alright , played Audi this morning and can say had fun .
Gonna go out with Sandra later :D . So yeah ,
That's all I guess !

Goodbyez ♥ . Mata ashita ne .

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I swear next year , something like this won't happen .
This year , shall be the very last . That's why I say I hate it .

Can say because of something minor , I give up .
I really give up . Let's just end this before you finally keep your promise .

It's like less than a week .

2010-10-12T22:17:00.004+08:00

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Likes for 240752389075802374 times (Y)

If you don't know what that sentence means , ask me , I will tell you what it is .
I will even tell you the story behind it , :D .

Alright so , today went out with Haimei , Divya and Karen .
We went to Tanjong Katong Rd to eat icecream .
So basically the icecream is like you pick your flavour , and one scoop is for $3.20 .
Toppings at 80cents , so if you picked your topping ,
They will mix your toppings into your icecream .
Don't know what the dark-plate is called but I heard from Haimei that it's damn cold :D .
And I picked Dark Chocolate and Peanuts , for 4bucks .
Hmmm I think it taste okay bah . But don't know why I will feel full .
Luckily rested for awhile and I can finish it , Hee ♥ .

Left the shop and all of us took our bus home .
Haimei and Karen went back to school , cause they got CCA .
I took my bus 40 and suprisingly I don't know where the hell it is heading to .
And from 4.40pm until like 5.20pm , I was at Aljunied and Ubi .
& Finally I ended up at the same place again , but this time I'm at the opposite .
So yeah , the bus looped and I should have went across to sit the bus LOL !
But at least I ended up at Bedok Inter HAHA .

So bought dinner home and ate .
Played my Audition and Msn-ed and BR Arena-ed .
Arena got bugged and came here to post/blog/whatever ♥ .
And yay , hope tomorrow's a good day , (Y) .

Goodbyez , Mata ashite ne ♥ .

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I hate myself for being reliant on people .
But I love how I force myself or rather be the one to get people to rely on .

Butabutabutabutabuta ;pray .

2010-10-12T00:38:00.002+08:00

Okay , brother's coming home soon . I guess by 1am .
He should have reached Singapore at this time .
Yeah , and my father's waiting for him to come home , heh .

Well , nothing much happened today too .
Managed to earn some dens for my new Fam , with Sandra .
3m plus more and we can buy 30members Fam house le ! \O/ .
After that , prepared and went down with mother to walk walk .
She bought her stuffs , we went to Ljs to makan .
After that go Ntuc to buy more stuffs etc etc .
And she said wanted to walk around the Night market ,
End up never even walk lah , LOL . ♥ .

Reached home , watched anime , chat-ed with peoplez .
Rotted and youtube-ed too . Gonna off soon bah .
& will be looking forward to tomorrow and wednesday ♥ , :D .

Goodbyez ♥ , mata ashita ne .

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I guess that was the biggest smile for the past few months .

Feeling relieved about the choice I've made ,
But sooner or later , my doubts will come about again .
Don't you hate it when you waver ?

10/10/10 !

2010-10-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

Slacking around , waiting for time to pass .
This is so uniquely Thk .

I don't know why but it felt so long since I last posted .
Can consider today as 9th Oct , and the previous post is on 7th Oct .
I think time passes too fast for me , LOL .
Since I always stare at my blog page and spam clicking the play button .

So, Sandra came to my house yesterday , to stay overnight .
Outside computer can't Audition , so she Audi-ed with her , uhem , Laopa LOL .
Yeah then I watched finish My Lucky Star drama ,
Started some new Animes that got uploaded too .
Then watched Diary of a Wimpy Kid ? Guess so , then Kick-Ass .
Went to lie down on bed for awhile and sadly I dozed off .
Woke up and Sandra left, around 8am , don't know why but I feel very shocked LOL .
& I only watched KickAss half way through , my dad , I guess , go off my computer .
Now I seriously don't feel like re-streaming . S:

As for today.. Woke up again at 1pm plus and prepared .
Mother wanted to head down to Aunt house and pass her the banana cake .
Reached and bought Steamed peanuts , it taste super NOT NICE . Yeah .
Watched TV at Aunt's house . Time passed by quite fast I guess .
Then headed down to eat at around 6pm plus .
Left and took bus at around 8pm plus .
And reached home around 9pm !

Did my stuffs , bathed and blahblahblah , watched tv again .
Then came back to use my comp and blog , \O/ .
& Hmmm , nothing much more . Hello , hello ~

Goodbyez , mata ashita ne ♥ .

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Ignorance is Bliss - 2.1

I don't know what I want .
I don't know why am I behaving like this .
I don't know if I should do things like the usual .
I don't know which is the right choice .

Oak the purse .

2010-10-07T17:58:00.002+08:00

Why am I getting so jealous for ?
I don't understand how feelings come about .
Especially when you're seriously clear that you don't want to feel this way .

You're most likely won't be able to marry the one you love the most .
Or never .

Sooooo , nothing much happened again , for today .
Did my usual routine . Facebook, Anime and Audition .
But today's the first time I actually wanted to start eating duck kway teow .
More like I crave for it , rather than afraid of eating , LOL .
Yeah , used to put it to the very very last choice to buy from the hawker centre .

I'm unique (weird) . In Thk's way . LOL . ♥ .
Like and Agree with this for 9124637981623862398562035 times .
And nobody's ever going to be same right ? Not even twins . Or triplets .
But there's one thing I hope for . I'm not unique in a bad way . THANKYOU .

Oh and , so my Brother left Singapore for Cambodia .
6am flight and reaches there at like 8.30am .
And my mum complained to me why he never call back when he reached .
& Since talking about this , I cannot tahan my parents lah , somehow , seriously ._.
It's like my brother also just called to hire cab .
Can't be he after call finish jiu run down right ? Lmaoz .
My mum also very what lah , the cab came and left .
She jiu down there shouting omg the cab left , call him head down earlier liao .
Then sadly , my father also woke up , to pee , or want to just know what happened .
Cause he went to the toilet less than 2hours ago , Rofl .
So yeah , as expected , my father also say , always like that , early go down better .

I bth le , I tell them he also just call what , and walked away .
Really don't know what's wrong with them . Anything also want to blame .
Bah, then my mother asked me , what I think of my father .
And what I think of her . I said Naggy loh , noisy loh .
So long liao , who won't find it irritating ? Right ?
And she think that cause so long already , we will be numb and everything .
But actually I kinda numb already , lazy to explain stuffs or just diam diam HAHA .
Say that they keep nag , we also won't change , blah blah blah .
AND I SLEPT , don't know she still got talk to me not .

And wow , a very long post after for so long ! HAHA .
Alright , can't remember any more 'stories' to share .
So..

Goodbye , Mata ashita ne ♥ .

-

How I wish I could be like the girl in that drama .
Lying for people's sake .
But it's like so impossible for someone like me who is so selfish .
♥ .

And then I will end up complaining why things are like this .
That's why I'm lying right ? Not bothering how I feel . Tsk tsk .

What the fcuk do you want .

2010-10-05T17:34:00.003+08:00

Hai , evening people . Nothing much happened today .
Waited for Audition Game Client Patch to be done .
Watched my My Lucky Star drama and some new Animes .
Some were kind of fucked up . -facepalm- .

The cute crab made my day . But I think all I did was bullying LOL .
Using my hand , act like I gonna hit the crab or something .
The crab reacted by 'jumping' , all I did was laughing at its reaction LOL .
Then my mum killed them, got 3 . The one I played with , was struggling !
Byebye , I gonna eat you soon ): .

So yeah , that's my wonderful boring day .
Goodbyez , mata ashita ne .

-

If I were to complain again , things for sure are gonna get worse .
But it's not like they will know why and what I'm unhappy about .
For what the hell am I to want them to listen to my complaints .
Yeah right , whatsoever . I'm nothing much after all .
Nothing much after trying my very best for them .
So yeah , Thanks a lot eh , you really helped , I guess .

FUCKED UP DAY .

Meaninglessly.

2010-10-04T00:33:00.003+08:00

Woke up and skipped breakfast . And used my Comp as usual .
Played Audition for awhile too , and drained a few Brbp Cc8 NPC :D .
Earned like 1million dens today I guess . Around there .

Got tired and ate my lunch . Then went to watch anime .
Well , Bakuman doesn't look bad . I wonder if was a completed manga . Seems familiar .
And some other new animes were quite , Oh my god .
But still , Tegami Bachi 2 is out ! :D .
Known as Letter Bee Reverse or Tegami Bachi Reverse .
Woooo so happy , it's finally out like after almost half a year x: . I think .

Then slacked around , complied my stuffs .
Met up with Sandra and headed to Mac to eat and study , for her .
I think I really forgot a lot of stuffs , especially my Emaths .
Sorry Sandra , I couldn't help much T___T .
Stayed for around 2hours + , and I used the Laptop and played with my iTouch .
Finally , she headed home LOL . Like took bus at 10pm ?

Reached home , did some stuffs and searching about Eden of the East .
Think I may complete it in 2/3 days , if I have nothing else to do .
Guess so , there's Fate Stay Night movie too .
K-ON!! Episode 26 I haven't watch finish too .
Hmmm , that's all bah . For today , nothing much happened .
Did my usual thinking too . I'm glad to be back to my old self .
I don't wanna deteriorate just because I stopped thinking about stuffs .
The more I stop , the more I couldn't concentrate in thinking . ):

Okay peeps , Goodbyez ! ♥ . Mata ashita ne .

-

Meaninglessly , thinking .
Meaninglessly , waiting .
Meaninglessly , living .

& I'll wait for yours to fade .

I don't like this .

2010-10-02T20:07:00.004+08:00

Blogging with my Blackberry today haha .
Hmmmm, today continued to watch my Jap drama.
Played abit of Audition today .
Finally 0miss-ed my Go Go Ssing BU also.
Same goes for my Ring Ding Dong . Somemore in full room.
But my perfects suck to the max lah, LOL.

Now at relative's house, wonder when I'm gonna head home.
Feel like watching Tv at 11.30pm later in Aircon room.
Suddenly feel so tired of stuffs today .
Meant for mind only \O/ !

Alright, nothing much for today . Or for now haha .
Goodbyez , Mata ashita ne . ♥ .

-

What am I to you exactly ?
And now I finally realized, it's not me .
It's actually them . Or had I actually did ?

Edit-
I just realized I forgot to printscreen my Ring Ding Dong 0miss D: !!
Haishz , the perfects really suck though , I think I had a 78x .
When I can already 85x ? Yeah guess so .
Anyway , 978 perfects for Techno (with 1 miss -.-) and 784 Perfects for Go Go Ssing , Yayz ! ♥.
Okay goodnight , 2.06am already, time to sleep .

(Think the miss was due to my finger slipping off the button,
So didn't manage to press it, like ARGH . )

Edit2-
OH YAH I JUST RMB SOMETHING . All thanks to the post below .
Today like around in the morning , or afternoon , 12pm ?
My mum suggested to go down and see who got hired for the job LOL .
Yeah so walk walk walk , AHHAH , spotted two .
One chinese auntie and one malay girl got paired up outside supermarket .
So we continued walking until near MRT there , since can 100% confirm have .
Another two malays, one girl one guy LOL . Then walk up , saw another malay auntie :3 .
And before I end , let me say something , the employers are malays :3 .
Maybe you can link something between or say that I'm just being _____ .
Okay that's all .
GOODNIGHTZXCV !

AND YOU , GO AND DIE .
DON'T COME AND TALK TO ME ANYMORE , @%@#%$@#% !

And you say, Duck lah !

2010-10-01T19:37:00.002+08:00

So end up , the job for tomorrow , the person didn't call back .
Went for interview and I don't know why the person don't want us LOL .
Oh well , I can't even work for a day . Wtfbbq .
Really wasted my holidays at home only . Tsk .

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .

Boy you look so fine ~ (Don't know how to continue)
Shall camp at Youtube website , wait for new songs LOL !

Hmmmmm , started watching a bit of 2 dramas .
One of them is Playful Kiss , Korean drama .
The other is Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge , Japanese drama .
Gonna waste my time watching Dramas instead of Animes this month .
HAHAHAHAHAHHA . Power lah :D .

Okay , paused for very long . It's like 8.57pm right now LOL .
And my mother so cute lah . She works from 9am to 11pm .
HAHAHAHHA , she still thinking whether to write 11am or 11pm . x:

& I delayed again ! 9.10pm right now LOL .
Hmmm , think I'll stop here .
Nothing much happened today :D .

Goodbyez ♥ , mata ashita ne .

1 Little, 2 Little, 3 Little Bastard , .. Continue it yourself .

2010-09-30T12:53:00.004+08:00

No oh no oh no oh oh , I can't breathe ~
LOL . The power of camping in front of the computer for hours and days .

- And can you stop replying short replies not !? BASKET .

Alright , been slacking for alot of days already .
No work , no Job , blah blah blah . All the stupid liars LOL .
Guess I really gonna waste my holiday .
Who wanna hire people and work for 1 month de , laughs .

It's like 20 days more ! OMFGBBQ . HAHAHAHAHA .
Oh my mama . ♥ .

After yesterday , I really guess that I'm blessed to have good parents .
Well , compared to other parents of my friends ,
Though I don't really know if their parents are really like how they described .
I FEEL LIKE GOING JAPAN AGAIN ! Or or TAIWAN AGAIN ! .
Yeah , this is very random of me LOL .

And so many scratches behind my iTouch already .
I NEED A COVER DAMN BADLY LIKE RIGHT NOW .
Guess I should have bought the transparent one .
Oh well , find one day go the same shop to buy again , LOL .

Hmmmm , I guess that's all . Shall go and read up some Japoonese language for fun .
I learned about a few yesterday , but I forgot everything HAHA , I r pl0 :D .

Goodbyez , mata ashita ne . ♥ .

-

Love , It isn't about someone you can live with ,
But about someone you can't live without .

I feel like screaming -
BASTARDS .

Can't really stand myself .

2010-09-28T00:32:00.002+08:00

1. Thanks Sandra for her advices and jokes :D .
& Thanks Senior for his kpo-ness LOL .

2. Wonder if I'm able to really get my job on Saturday .
Asking someone I never see before to accompany is , -___- .
Anybody wanna work on weekends S: ?

3. Now restreaming my Fairy Tail , gonna sleep after that :D .
Hug my Winnie Pooh ♥ .

4. Feel like MIA-ing Audition , don't know login do what .
But will online if there people inside though .
Bored of the gameplay and everything .
Bored of how people keep switching partners too (: .

5. Toilet de lightbulb spoil , how I remove my lenses ?! S: .
Gah , shall find a way out , Laughs .

6. I want my hair to get longer , really , prishzxcv D: .

7. I don't know already, and come to think of it .
Why did my life suck anyway ? Speechless .
I used to complain so much about it and I don't know what to answer , lol .

8. Stream finish le , shall stop here bah .
Nothing much happened today too . In the morning I had a bad mood .
A really really very bad mood .

9. Oh , I finished watching Personal Taste too . :D

10. Okay , Goodbyez ♥ .
Mata ashita ne .

One after another .

2010-09-27T01:05:00.003+08:00

Can't take this anymore .
I really can't take this anymore .
It's not like I wanna say , 'Fcuk my Life' again and again .
I'm just tired of this stupid routine .
A routine will never change . Not even in 5years or 10years .

Fuck , I hate Thk .

-

Nothing much happened today .
Goodbye .

-

How I wish my tears could wash my face every night .

EGG ROLLLLLLZXCV .

2010-09-25T15:35:00.002+08:00

OKAY SO . Yesterday , slacked the whole day from like 11.30am until like now .
LOL , yeah didn't sleep except for like 2hours since yesterday .
Campers ftw , but at least we had a fun night and it doesn't seem to be a wasted night LOL .
Well sooooo , alot of stuffs happened yesterday too .
But at least I'm able to see what really lies in front of me and managed to push myself .
Yeah guess so guess so , Day 1 and still counting , I shall not give in , ♥ .

Yeah , so Sandra came to my house and we ton overnight in front of the computer .
Went down to supermarket to buy food beforehand .
Laughed alot and Sandra had more fun than me LOL .
I hope she can come and ton again sia , Oho ho ho ho ho ho ho .
So slacked with her from like 11.30pm till 8am uh .
Then I went to prepared 2 EGG ROLLS .
Yeah & I think the fire too big already , the colour become like pancake LOL !

Ate and I seriously bth , want to sleep le LOL . Almost dozed off alot of times .
So yeah , Sandra left at like 10.30pm and I went to sleep for 2hours maybe ?
Then continued watching my korea drama ever since I woke up lohz .
Now waiting for time to come so can go and prepare to head down to Airport .
The timing like cannot confirm one lah , the website like never update also , Arghz .

& Oh , I must and I shall sleep early today . BUAYTAHAN AH LOL .
Alright , shall do more stuffs and prepare le bahz .

Goooooodbyez ♥ ! - Mata ashita ne ~

-

I'm glad I manage to give myself a promise ever since after yesterday night .
I hope I will not forget this and push myself forward and face reality .
Though accepting it is like shooting myself , I can't cling onto the past anymore .

Imma Pea brainer ?

2010-09-22T23:47:00.002+08:00

Learn quite a lot of things today and yesterday .
Especially about what happened in the past and learning my lessons .
Promised myself to do a reflection , but I think I forgot about the content already .
Tsk , Thk you are really a short-term-memory person . YOU FAILED TOO . LOL .

Alright so .. As usual nothing much happened today .
Woke up at like 5.30am and took taxi to Terminal 3 at 6am .
Ate breakfast at the Kopitiam . I order the breakfast set .
My father requested for the eggs to be more boiled .
End up not even more boiled . Laughs .

Ate finish and headed down to Terminal 1 to meet up with my Uncle and Cousin .
Queue up to check in and slacked around before my parents go into the departure hall .
So yeah , they went in at like 8am and we said goodbye , well , GOODBYE !
And then both my aunts followed me home . Cause my 2nd aunt want to use the computer .
Reached home , I played my audi , they chat and find recipes loh .

Many thanks to my aunt for helping me buy lunch and paus for dinner LOL .
Ah meals of the 1st day are cleared , HAHAHAHAHAH . Cleared rofl .
And I think my appetite is back . Feel like eating so many things right now .
Blah blah blah , Gotta control . Gotta control . Cannot eat snacks ): !

Mou ikkai ! Mou ikkai ! ; Rolling Girl - Hatsune Miku .
Dk why suddenly like this song S: . ALL PADDY ERZUAH'S FAULT ! (Y) .

So hmmmmm , guess that's all about today bah .
For 3 days , the house's gonna be quite quiet yah ;shy .
Just remember , gotta throw the rubbish away . Tsk tsk .
And ..

Goodbyez ♥ ~

-

So should I keep a promise to myself .
When there is like 99% chance that I will break it .

He failed !

2010-09-22T00:04:00.003+08:00

He looks like a smoker , he looks like an emo guy .
( Sorry there's no comment or like button here )

PARENTS ARE GOING TO FLY TO CHINA IN 8HOURS TIME .
And I gotta wake up in like less than 6hours time .
How I wish someone wake up at that time to and message me .
WILL LOVE DIE THAT SOMEONE LAH LOL ♥ .

So , again nothing much happened today .
Slack and slack and slacked . Didn't Audition much today .
Play by my own only , but happy that my perfects for BU increased LOL .
But got disconnected alot of times luh , don't know why .

Hmm , so shall watch my Nurarihyon after this and see who still talking to me .
Then shall go and sleep le bah . Tonight my parents were the noisiest compared to other days .
Keep ask me to go and sleep, go and sleep . Very irritating sia .
Not like I never take a 3hours sleep only before , Tsk .

Okay .

Goodbyez , Mata ashita ne . ♥ .

Naisu - !

-

If all I did was thinking of all possibilities that are in the bad side ,
Means nothing good will happen .
But what if I tried to think of possibilities that are in the good side ,
Will something good happen ? Will they happen ?

I soaked myself with the worst situations that can happen .

Self-comfort is still important .

2010-09-20T22:27:00.004+08:00

Self-comfort x 92567283465926347862738945678293645 .

So today , Mitsudomoe , Fairy Tail & H.O.T.D is subbed .
Gonna watch H.O.T.D later . Forget what happened in the last episode le LOL .
Guess I gonna rewatch Kuroshitsuji Season 2 last episode later , yah .
Well if I got the time . But I think Thk got super loads of time to spare .

And nothing much happened today .
Managed to not go out with parents to eat lunch and dinner .
IT'S A MIRACLE , LOL . They took take away for me , ;shy . HAHAHAHAHA .
Hmmm , Tomorrow's Tuesday already .
Wonder when my results are going to be out .
Super super super excited and scared LOL . Yah .. O:

OH AND I CROPPED GJWGZ FROM A SCREENSHOT .
Even though she hasn't bought that stuffs yet , BUT SOON K ♥ .
Weeee , though my cropping sucks I still like the cropped picture alot LOL , ~

So , Another day passed and I've made no progress . Thk suck ttm , yay .
Okay , shall stop here right now S: .

Goodbyez ♥ .

-

I'll never stop self-comforting myself and ,
Ignoring stuffs that doesn't actually matter .
Though every single time knowing that something happened ,
It really striked me damn hard -.- .

COME ON THK , YOU CAN GET RID OF THIS FEELING .
SOONER OR LATER , YOU HAVE THE TIME .
SO BEAR WITH IT OKAY WOMAN !!!! .

1more month and !

2010-09-19T13:59:00.003+08:00

ITS OMFGWTFBBQZXCVZXCVZVX LOL . ♥ .
Well should I buy a Rasberry Vodka to celebrate LOL . Lame right , LAUGHS .
Wonder what will I be doing during that day . Hmmm .
Out of ideas already :D .

And todaaaay , don't know got what anime luh .
Don't think there's any that I'm chasing .
So shall chase other animes o.O . Maybe .
Parents went out to Chinatown , didn't want to go :3 .
BORING DIE LAH . So hot somemore , blah .

& Sian ah , really don't know when we will get a reply sia ._.
But nevermind , shall look forward to the following days .
Hope can go out with Sandra this Thursday , Teeheeheeheehee LOL .

Alright , nothing much le , still early . Post more at night o_o ?
(Screw my sore throat and flu , S: )

Goodbyez ♥ .

-

I LOVE MY DREAM THIS MORNING LOL .
But I forgot 80% about it already D: . T____T

Or am I wrong O_O ?

2010-09-18T12:47:00.003+08:00

Seriously I don't understand why .
Oh well , nevermind . It will happen when Time comes anyway -shrugs-
- I g n o r a n c e I s B l i s s - ( 1 . 7 ) .

TODAAYYYYY ,
Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn is uploaded , Kaichou Wa Maid same gonna get subbed .
Anddddddddddddddd , I don't know what to do for the day .
Mother's heading in the evening , most probably Father go and watch his movie or Idk .
ARGH , when will that person reply back sia . Accept or reject also reply mah .
Make us like idiots waiting lol . Blah , stupid stupid stupid ;yay .

MEANINGLESS HOLIDAYS . It always happens .
When it is Exams , you want holidays .
When it is holidays , you got nothing do and rather start school .
Happened to me for like how many times le ah , 4times -.- ?
AND I WANT BUY CASH RAHZ . Don't know should I wait for sales :/ .
Budden I think Ive got no money roflmaozxcvwtfbbq .

Okay , I think I'm getting lame as the post gets longer .
& LIKE AWWWWWWWW . She's so fcuking better than me !
Alright , more random thoughts shall be meant my mind only LOL .

Goodbye , ♥ .

& HELL TO BASTARDS YOH ! :D .

-

It's like meaninglessly waiting for miracles to happen .
Another Term has passed . Here comes another holiday .
Will Thk have the courage to ask this month ?
I guess everyone out there will support me right ): ?

O.o.O.o.O.o.O.o.O.o

2010-09-17T17:51:00.003+08:00

BASIC , EXPECTED , DESIRED , BLAH BLAH BLAH .
Screw that 7hours long workshop . Everybody's like sleeping .
Somehow I guess we wasted alot of time today .
But nevermind , was interesting because there are my friends LOL .

ANDDD , Ookami-san , I didn't see it get uploaded yesterday LOL . Phail .
Kuroshitsuji 2 TOO . ♥ . Shall watchhhhh and slaaack .
And wait for Sandra to come back home at night and play Audi ;cry .
GO AWAY , EH EH EH . Papa loves Mama , LOL ♥ .

Hmm and nothing much happened today beh .
Next week parents going overseas, Imma going to be home alone .
Shiok or not shiok I don't know lah .
Most probably camp at home for like 3days + , since Brother got no holidays .
HAIMEI COME STAY OVER LOLLLLLLLL . Just kidding S: .

Alright , shall go and afk right now .
Post more at night , probably , or after dinner .
' I add you ah jiao ' LOL . ♥ .

Goodbye ! WEEEEEEEEEEEE . I love my Nelson son , F3 .

(Oh and I sneezed like mad today -.- Bah .)

-

This is the way I forget things . Because it is the only way .
Don't mind me for going over crazy . (:

Sabishii neh.

2010-09-16T22:18:00.003+08:00

Finally got a Screen protector for my iTouch :D .
Gonna get a cover soon . I wonder what colour will I pick .

Oh and I lost my earring few days ago .
And I found it again , actually my mom found it , at the same place I found it last time .
Yes , this is the 2nd time I lost it . So lucky that it came out when I was asleep lah .
Hope it won't come out again . If not I will be damn sad ): .

Andddddd. Tried watching Blood+ today .
Find the storyline abit boring . Not interested .
Maybe will watch when I really got the time to .
Last time chionged 7animes with 2x episodes in a month .
This month de holiday I wonder I will chiong how many , LOL .
Guess 1 or 2 bah . Kind of out animes for me to chase already , boring ! ;cold .

Another thing that's gonna happen this month is .. My part-time job !
Submitted or rather sent a email to apply le , really hope can work there lah .
If not then sian loh , hope got other places as good as this S: ?
Everytime I get my hopes high , always fail to happen de loh .
This happened like 2 to 3 times to me already sia , D: .

So yeah , nothing much happened today .
Thk as usual did a lot of pushing and thinking . Gambatte !
All the best to Thk in whatever she does and decides .

Goodbyez , Mata ashita ne . ♥ .

(OH GREAT , TMR'S A LONG BORING DAY AT SCH .)

-

Afterall , I still can't get myself to forget .
I guess I really really need the time .
And also the very very big effort . Hais .

Telling myself to think how I am when I used to be alone .
How I did stuffs and let the days go by and not feeling down .
Really works in comforting myself and making me to at least smile o_o .

I'm satisfied .

2010-09-16T12:58:00.000+08:00

Neomu chisahajana neodapji mot-hajana
Jigeum jeokeungi andwae eojireoweo wae
Nuga nugurang hae-eojyeo niga narang hae-eojyeo
Jal saenggak-hago malhae, yeah

Nal ddaradanideon namja
Cham gwaenchanatdeon namja
Nan neo hana ddaemunae da bonaetneundae
Nuga nugurang hae-eojyeo niga narang hae-eojyeo
Nal eopshi jal salabwa, yeah

Tonight hapil ddo bineun naeryeo wae
Nae moseup chorahaejigae

Nal wiro hajineun ma
Ee son chiweo eejae naminikka

Nae geokjung malgo go away
Jipchak eopshi sarajyeo joolgae
Medal lil jul alatgaetji
Yeokgyeoweo chakgakhajima

Deo meotjin sarang mannalgae
Neol huhwaehagae mandeuleo julgae
Seulpeumeun jigeum ppooniya, boy
Cause love is over, love, love is over tonight

Just say what you gotta say
Eojjeom kkeut-kkaji meoteopni?
Fiancé? Beyonce! I’m walkin’ out of destiny
Chorahan holloga anin hwaryeohan solo, that’s my way
Modeungeol da jweosseuni oheeryeo nan huhwae an hae

Jiga deo seulpeun cheok
Kkeut-kkaji meoshi.tneun cheok
All you do is act a fool
You ain’t shi.t without your crew
Shigan eopseo, I gotta go
Annyeong, good bye, adios
Ni motnan eolgool dashin bogo shipjin ana no more

Tonight hapil ddo bineun naeryeo wae
Nae moseup chorahaejigae
Nal wiro hajineun ma
Ee son chiweo eejae naminikka

Nae geokjung malgo go away
Jipchak eopshi sarajyeo joolgae
Medal lil jul alatgaetji
Yeokgyeoweo chakgakhajima

Deo meotjin sarang mannalgae
Neol huhwaehagae mandeuleo julgae
Seulpeumeun jigeum ppooniya, boy
Cause love is over, love, love is over tonight

Go go away
Go away
Go away
Go away

Nae geokjung malgo go away
Jipchak eopshi sarajyeo joolgae
Medal lil jul alatgaetji
Yeokgyeoweo chakgakhajima

Deo meotjin sarang mannalgae
Neol huhwaehagae mandeuleo julgae
Seulpeumeun jigeum ppooniya, boy
Cause love is over, love, love is over tonight

I may deserve nothing .

2010-09-14T17:13:00.004+08:00

May the obvious be true . May Thk say It's okay , nevermind .
- I g n o r a n c e - i s - b l i s s (1.1) .

I'll just treat it as something that you wouldn't really care .
I may say , It's frigging obvious ? But who knows .
Actions speak better than words . & Plainly with words are never clear .
It's not like I can't trust people anymore . I know it myself .
Something like that is just , Impossible . Never gonna happen .
Since when the population wouldn't care and say it wouldn't change a thing ?
Maybe it will , maybe it did . But that's in the past .
Now ? Not anymore , I doubt so . Nobody's going to sacrifice .
Well , not for me . I'm nothing much as compared to other people .
Treating it like I've not thought about it so much ,
Treating it like that nothing had happened , I'm completely blind and deaf .
- I g n o r a n c e - i s - b l i s s (1.2) .

Things will eventually get better .
And in this case , that is if I completely forget the bad stuffs .
& Of course with only remembering the good stuffs .
- I g n o r a n c e - i s - b l i s s (1.3) .

-

Nothing much happened today .
Slacked the whole day in front of the computer as usual .
Gotta head to school for 2hours tomorrow and 9 hours on Friday .
Suuuuuuuuuuper boring . Stupid workshop .

Alright , new music's up too O: . (Thanks to Sandra)
Goodbyez ♥ .
Mata ashita ne .

-

Keeping it make me feels uneasy .
It's like I'm completely irritating and you're just playing along with me .
Things have changed . Things had changed . Don't lie about it right now .

1. Ignore and just wait for things to get better .
2. Ask and get my doubts cleared .
3. I don't know what to choose (Y) .

So what if your super great like everybody said .
It would mean nothing if I'm nothing to you .
Laugh , out , loud .

Holidays are here !

2010-09-13T21:04:00.002+08:00

Finally exams are over ! Well for Year2.1 .
Somehow I hate how Year2.2 is coming .
Because of the Communication Skills module again. IT SUCKS OKAY .
And after Year2.2 I gotta go for attachment le , sibeh sian T.T .
Then after that jiu NAFA liao , haishz ! Thk like to think so far .

ANYWAY , since exams are over . I can watch as many videos I like LOL .
Gonna watch Fairy Tail etc etc later . Guess will take up hours :3 .
Yayz , Anime FTW .

& I gotta call by tomorrow , seriously . I've been delaying and delaying ): .
Need work , I need money !! .

Hmm and still gotta go back to school for two more days this week .
Sian die le . Don't know what workshop rahz . Friday whole day somemore , Kns can .
But nevermind , after this week jiu no need go back liao :D .

And during this holiday , gonna go to Airport for 4 times LOL .
2 Check-ins and 2 Check-outs , Parents going China , and after that Mum and Aunt going Beijing .
Cool right ! I this year will go to Airport for like 8times LOL ♥ .

Kay , nothing much already .
& I'm waiting for my hair to get longer . I still find it quite short manzxcv . Blah .

Goodbyez ♥ .

-

I understand the situation very well .
That is if my assumption is correct .

Self-comfort is important .

2010-09-11T19:34:00.002+08:00

Self-comfort is the best solution to stuffs .
Though it sound like looking at the bright side ,
Self-comfort sounds less forceful .

Ignorance & Self-comfort .
I'll be a happier person .

So, I've been slacking for the whole of the afternoon and have not started studying .
Gonna study after I bathe , or say after 8pm .
Hope can finish up my notes by 12am . Shall not sleep late today .
That irritating thing at my vision is really giving me a headache .
Lucky today wasn't like the previous time .
I'm sure to waste the whole day already.

And yes , didn't go to rest since Mother will ask me what happen .
I seriously rather keep quiet and let her shout all she want .
Thk loves Ignorance . Though sometimes it can get very serious .

Alright , going off right now . Pray I won't waste anymore time today.
Goodbyez ♥ .

Ja ne .

-

Don't force yourself , really .
It is not worth for you at all .
I'm the one at loss .

You can't rewind time .

2010-09-11T00:48:00.003+08:00

Had a fun day today with NMCKE-SG clique today :D .
Though Seh/Ahgong joined us after she ended her work :3 .

Reached Pasir Ris late , and met up with Meh & Ceh .
The rest came and saw Jie and wave at her , LOL .
Slacked at Kopitiam , deciding what to do later .
I hate Anti-Social Devices , ;wild , though I use them too LOL .

Finally decided to head down to Plaza sing .
Spammed called Sandra and she never answer .
And finally she replied , she couldn't make it down @.@

So reached Dhoby and bought tickets . 5.50pm .
Checked out Jie's fishing and decided not to play .
Walked around and don't what else happened .
Left with 50mins more and Cicake chose to went down to Zone X to play .
And 50mins were up and we couldn't find him , so I started to flare again :/ .

Maybe I did the wrong things at that point of time .
Since I really really cannot take it the way he replies us .
Even though I really said very bad stuffs , I don't feel like saying sorry -.-

Watched movie and headed down to Ljs .
They wrote birthday wishes for Meh's jie , while I did some stupid drawings .
Been long since everyone get to sit down and chat :3 .
Guess we were there for like 2hours lol .
Blahblahblahblahblah , headed down and of course , due to my itchy hands ..
I touched Technika 2 again , LOL . Okay I'm finding it boring already .

Sandra came and went home with Jie ,
She alighted the same as me cause she waiting for her friend .
Guess her friend is in another train bah .

Reached home , did stuffs and everything .
Blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahlbhlahlbahl , going off right now .
Tomorrow's going to be a stressful day .
Gotta force myself to do my notes if not I really gonna have another 3rd time of 3hours of sleep .

Goodbye , Mata ashita ne . ♥ .

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Don't force , yourself .

& tonight shall be a long night .
Good job done , Thk .
You got yourself something else .

I need work.. I need work..

I need to cry to be happy .

2010-09-09T19:31:00.006+08:00

Post more later , dinner ♥ .

Edit-
Maybe not , kinda lazy .
Nothing much happened today .

iPod touch arrived today , yeah .
Slacked for the whole day I guess .
Great .

So bye . ♥ .

Edit2-
I'M SO HAPPY TMR'S COMING .
FINALLY ABLE TO GO OUT FOR LIKE 9hours nia .
BUT STILL HAPPY CUZ ITS NMCKE OUTING LOLOLOOL .
AHAHAHAHDNGAIOENRGINAECGNAEIRY .

Don't know why am I so high right now -.-
Wanted to off comp at around 1.10am de .
So as usual Thk delayed again until 1.44am LOL .
UNNAMED WORLD ♥ .
Shall memorise soooooon Ohhlhlalalamsogvniorngiosvndiro .
THK AH . PLEASE CALM DOWN . GOD , LOL .

kthxbai ♥

1. Must buy the-dont-know-call-what for iTouch tmr .
2. Must not EAT TOO MUCH tmr .
3. Must not become anti-social tmr .
4. Must not think of Technika at Iluma tmr .
5. MUST NOT BE LATE TMR .
6. Guess that's it .

NAKED HALF , THERE'S A SHINY WAY ~ ♥ .

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I don't wanna believe in it anymore .
I really don't , but I just cant stop myself .
I better be ridden off the fate for it ,
Then getting a happy start and a hurtful ending .
I rather be sad forever or rather not happy at all .
Then telling myself that I can be happy right now,
But after awhile , something's bad is sure to happen .

Are cha serious !?

2010-09-09T00:32:00.002+08:00

Had my 2nd 3hours of sleep this Sem .
Woke up and felt quite tired , but heck care ~

Went to school at 8am plus , met up with Haimei and walked in .
Slacked around with classmates and went up to tutorial room .
Took the paper , stone-ed for quite a lot of times cause don't know how to do .
But I think with the help of CA marks (Yes like IBM), I will be able to pass bah .

Paper ended , met up with Haimei again , because different venue .
Went to library and she borrowed her two videos .
Left and something happened .
Something that I will laugh and never forget about it .
Oh well , I wonder why we avoided each other though .

Waited for bus , skipped the first bus 69 , and took the 2nd bus .
2nd bus no people neh ! Mwahahahahaz , and I alighted one stop earlier .
Thought can buy kway teow to eat but stall never open ): .
So mum went to steam the luo mai kai she bought .
Ate and Audi-ed . Drained Brbp for like 900k I guess ? ♥ .

Slacked around and finally bathe and went down to eat at 8pm LOL .
Hongkong noodle, Fish soup, Sotong noodle and Popiah .
Ate near half of first two dish and a few of the last two .
I'M GETTING FATTER MANZCXV . ARGH .
Okay , need to not eat so much liao . (Maybe I should follow that advice :P)

Bought my screen protector on the way and .. Reached home .
Continued to Audi , and went to my Arena , out at 2nd round .
Why ? Because of that fcuking Thriller song again, 4th place again .
But nevermind at least got 9 fp ;love .

Watched Break Blade 2 , AND WOOOO , DAMN NICE OKAY ♥ .
So finished watching and came to blog . Going off already ! Need to sleep !

Goodbye , Mata ashita ne ♥ .

-

I don't know if I should believe in those words .
I really don't want to fall into the trap again .
Cause words without actions , are never clear .

Oh and what's this feeling inside of me .
Why must tears try to flow out every time I think about it .
I really must be a bitch to think that way .__. ...

7th's , September , 2008 . ♥ .

2010-09-07T00:58:00.004+08:00

It's long over . I wonder if he's thinking about it, since today's the day .
Well, been 2years . & If only it lasted this long , I would be much more happier .
Alright , forget it . If I don't have the courage to ask , guess it'll never happen .
Guess it's also hard to give up/forget about you too .

So , today had my IBM paper around in the afternoon, 2.30pm .
Paper started and I started to write all the craps I can think of .
Guess I can pass bah , will the help of my CA marks .

Left 10mins earlier and headed down to Library to watch movie with Haimei .
Hachiko , the Japanese dog damn cute lah . ♥ .
& as usual , I cried like , Haimei's not even crying at that part LOL .
But really luh , the dog don't know anything , then keep waiting for his master to appear .
Ok, I now still can cry sia LOL . Omg , my tears really like free one sia -.-

And , after watching , headed back home and ate my dinner .
I kena cheated for the 2nd time again . I thought I ordered Chicken .
But then , have is have lah , 2 pieces of chicken ? So fcuking small somemore .
The rest they gave is those 'chai por' -.- ? Eat what sia , I might as well don't order meat .
Damn angry lah , you want sell also sell properly can . Must save/earn until like that ?
Can say I had a 'meatless' dinner , good what right , Rofl .

Watched TV and helped Brother did something online .
Played BeatUp for the whole time I online-ed , ♥ .
Weather sibeh cold , find my perfects so shxt today , and keep kena own also .
Of course lah , my perfects not so high also . x: .
& I officially really hate the song Rally and Try to Copy me in BU T.T
Last time used to love it to the max , now , Haiya can I don't play ? Lol .

Plus I where got scared sia ! I relax de play also can win you .
I rather save my energy and chat with people -.- ..

Ok , save energy on whining about people like that LOL .
Hmmm , guess that's all for today .
Gonna sleep right now , hopefully I doze off fast .
And then wake up at 7am plus as usual to study my maths .
♥ . Thk feels like she's falling in love again , FCUK YEAH , this sucks . LOL .

Goodbye , Mata ashita ne ♥ .

-

If someone is already important to you,
Can you fcuking stop flirting around ?
Bastard sia.

F-IRETR-UCK !

2010-09-05T20:43:00.003+08:00

I has only one arm D:

First time 0 miss I think o_o ?

I LOVE MY PERFECTS , though I got pwned . ♥.

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OKAY I'M NOT STUDYING OMG .
SERIOUSLY , 9PM ALREADY , I STILL HERE POSTING , WTFUX .
Okay shall go study after this post , LOL .
Seriously , hopefully , Omfgbbqzxcv D: .

See ya peeps ;cry .

3TOPICS PLUS MORE TO GO !!

Woo, Dance in the Dark on the radio :D .
Haha, another past Audition BGM song o.o
ALRIGHT BYE . GAWD ! . Tsk .

Got job work good .

2010-09-04T14:14:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH .
Yesterday went out at 12pm plus , and met up with LST .
Headed to Chinatown and walked around .
Keep going up and down, up and down , sibeh giddy alr rofl .

Then headed to PlazaSing around 4pm, reached at 5pm.
So the movie started and we bought the 7pm tickets .
Walked around as usual , to Daiso and I found my paper clips .
SHALL BUY AND FOLD THEM INTO HEART SHAPES .
Yeah that shall happen after my Sem exams .

Ate at Xin wang cafe , WOOOO ♥ , Fish fillet hohohohoho .
Take away-ed 2 Bo luo bao into the cinema to eat . Nom nom nom .
Watched Vampires Suck and the girls behind us keep laughing like no tmr .

Alright , show ended , went back to the Net shop and LST bought her shorts .
Left and headed to the Zone X arcade , walked in , turned left, WHERE'S TECH !?
Looked around , oh it's near the entrance , then I just realize , it become Tech2 alr .
So yeah , wanted to play Tech1 de , so nevermind, I finally laid my hands on it LOL .

After that , went back home via Circle line and mum called say Sat no slot for appointment .
So reached home and after 10mins, left house and boarded bus to the Clinic .
Finished diagnosis and yeah, everything my fault lah . Lol .

Reached home , played Audi and did some of my notes .
Gonna chiong everything by today , hopefully .
So , cya peeps at night .

Goodbye ♥ . MATA NE .

300k more to 40m dens , (Y) .

Speechless , Study day .

2010-09-03T00:37:00.002+08:00

BOM! ♥

Failed much .

*I tried to use Photobucket to upload my photos .
*But I can't , somehow it just can't load , so I jumped to Flickr for the day .
*Guess it's about the same, just that it's hard to find the img code -.-

I understand , I KNOW .

2010-09-02T13:22:00.003+08:00

It's not like I'm not listening to your advice .
I listened , I tried to , but in the end I can't carry it out .
So yeah , actions explained everything , thoughts can't explain anything .

I understand , I UNDERSTAND , I NEED TO SLEEP EARLY RIGHT .
But since I'm Thk , I love to delay things , I love to do things last minute .
How the hell you expect me to sleep early .
I can delay from 1am to 3am de you know .
There are too much fcuking interesting things to see .

& I knew it , I should have just kept my mouth shut instead of telling you what happened .
I told and all you do is nagging me instead of asking me if I'm okay .
Yeah maybe , cause I wouldn't need that right .
I only need your advice in how to not make it happen again right .
I KNOW LAH . I already feeling sick still want to nag me .
Seriously , sometimes , not replying back to get my stand , may seem hard .
But it is so as to stop the arguing and it's useless to argue back also lah .

So now , I'm still feeling sick and forcing myself to study , great .
& Goodbye .

That's why , I knew it .

2010-09-02T00:52:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone .
Thk slacked off almost everyday and didn't start studying .
Except for staying at school and forcing myself to study .
Since there's nothing to do but study in the library .

Guess cause I've got a choice to use the computer at home .
That's why I'll never be able to study at home , great .
Tomorrow , shall start touching on my 3rd day exam subject .
But who knows I'll slack off again .
Hmm , guess Imma gonna off my computer tomorrow at night .
Only online during the afternoon and right before dinner .
And online to open my restaurant etc .

So , yeah nothing much happened these few days .
Just that got a headache today , slept right after dinner .
Felt like vomitting also , lucky I didn't .
& Yeah , slept from 7pm plus , still awake at 8pm and slept .
Woke up at around 10pm plus and wasted my time .

So, gonna go off right now .
Goodbye , ♥ .

-

I guess I knew what I'm like .
That made me to become in this state .
Can't really blame other people for putting me in this spot .
Cause everything started because of me .

& I hate it when my phone's quiet .
& I hate it when that irritating person messages me ._.

I'm feeling sick man .

2010-08-29T16:17:00.005+08:00

Sandula Tan , --PAJIA0 .

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Nom nom nom nom nom . Now is 7pm already .
Don't know what time I clicked New Post LOL .

Eating my Dinner , Mum went out again .
Didn't go out cause I feel quite sian , she wanna shop mah .
If I got nothing to do , I will go beh .
Since I keep have the mindset that I've to study .

Oh well , nothing happened today also .
Stared at stuffs and played Audition .
Watched anime and now waiting for Chef Kiss to stream .

Guess by 8pm Imma gonna start studying already .
Shall not touch Audition unless Sandra's online or something ): .

Thk , you must keep your promise !

& Hmmm , hope to stay back at school tmr and Tuesday I guess .
Studying at school is much more effective than I studying at home .
I had a lot of experiences already LOL .

Will Haimei accompany me ? x: .

Alright , time to eat and stare at the streaming bar ):
So ,

Goodbye , Mata ashita ne ♥ .

-

Failure and hardship can help you achieve your dreams .

It really better not be .

2010-08-28T02:01:00.002+08:00

IT'S 2AM AND YES , I HAVE NOT SLEEP YET LOL .
Well, nothing much happened today .
Quite a fruitful day I guess . Or happy day ?

Woke up , and as usual played computer . Laughs .
Watched Ookami-san and Kuroshituji too .
Audi-ed for quite a long time , cause Sandra online-ed .
And also cause my fam got channel , so got people to play with , Hee !

Dinner , ate KFC , brother went down to buy , Mwahahaha .
Watched a bit of Tv and went to watch ChefKiss6 .
Went back online and continued to tag fp for moi fam .

Woo , getting to 40m soon . But donating around 3m to fam luh , ♥ .

Tagged quite long and I only did some of my notes . NOT MUCH .
But better than nothing I guess , roflmaozxcvbbq .

Finally logged out Audi 15mins ago . Damn tired today , again .
So yeah , guess Imma gonna really start studying tmr .
Really , I gonna start . LOL . For people who knows me well .
Will know what will happen tomorrow (: . Will Thk study or not study ?!

Alright !

Goodbye , Mata ashita ne ! ♥ .

-

Afraid that I will get myself deeper .
Afraid that I will hurt myself more .
I really don't like the way I'm thinking and acting .

Flying pinkies !

2010-08-27T00:46:00.004+08:00

Guitars are cool .
Electric guitars are cooler .
Drums are the coolest .

:D

Okay , so started my day by studying ABIT of my OSH .
But in the end I wrote like only 9 lines .
I went to play Audi and then went to eat .

Daydreamed , stared at my computer , and went Audi again .
Sandra is online ! O: . And then we found a fam and joined .
Played with her until 6pm plus and off-ed .

Slacked around and finally went down at 9pm to buy dinner .
Ate my noodles and watched Naruto 175 at the same time .
The plot finally ended LOL . Hooray ! o.o

Went back to Audi and played few rounds of BU .
Sandra came back online too and played with her .

Sorry ah , because I so kpo , we wasted alot of time LOL .

Fambattle-ed a few and came back to desktop to do my stuffs .
After that , blogged and I've got nothing to do now .
Guess I shall go and sleep now .

And I wonder when will I really start studying .
Thk lost all her motivation . She got nothing except holidays in her head .

Goodbye , Mata ashite ne ♥ .

-

I can be there for you , but I don't seem to come to your mind .
It's okay . It's not like there's anyone I could think of too .

Step up 3 , 2D .

2010-08-25T23:16:00.002+08:00

Okay , so woke up and father said (In chinese) :

Wake up liao . We go watch Step up 3 .
You like de movie , 2pm ah .
Go the new cinema at bugis watch .

And I wondered , since when did I say I like Step up . LOL .
I never watch Step up at cinema , not 1 or 2 .
I watched both on aeroplane -.- , I think . Forget already HAHA .

After watching , went to OG and went to see clothes .
Well father did his own shopping , I followed my mum as she looked around .
Tried a lot of clothes and pants , she say she want to reconsider .
So walked around and I bth already , I ask her to faster LOL . x:

Finally left OG , without buying anything .
Because she want to ask aunt to accompany her then buy .
Then also because the what OG card need to change ,
& for you to change need to spend 75bucks and above .

So yeah ,

Went to eat Laska & Otah , woo ! Drank Ice milo too .
Left Bugis and headed to Uncle's house .
My father's eldest brother , wanted to pass him the coffee from Vietnam .
Passed and my uncle also don't know pass what to him .

And then headed down to Old kallang airport road there to eat dinner .
I ate my Saba fish , Father ate his porridge and Mum ate her Prawn noodle .
Then also ordered Wanton noodle and everybody shared .
Walked around and bought junk food for supper or I don't know .

Took bus home and went to find something at Guardian .
Reached home and bathed and came here .

I wonder if I'm really going to touch my notes after this .
LOL . I really don't trust myself anymore also -.- .

Oh well , let's just see how motivated Thk is right now .

Goodbye ! Mata ashite ne . ♥ .

THAT'S THE BEST .

2010-08-25T00:20:00.004+08:00

Please look at the note at the side first .
& You must be wondering why I don't want to post it here .
Okay , I'll say I'm dumb .

Anyway ,

Saikou da !
Actually nothing 'best' happened today .
Just so happened that I wanted to use that word .

Ore wa tomodachi , saikou da ! ♥ .

At first I thought it was Saiko , but it ended up telling me it is oldest .
So yeah , didn't use and found Saikou after awhile .

Hmmm , yes , perhaps I'm going back to normal blogging .
Maybe , I guess , well , Idk .

Gotta start studying for my Sem exams already .
MUST , STUDY ! CANNOT , PROCRASTINATE !
Been forcing myself for days already , and I've not done any progression -.-

Alright , shall go and sleep now before my mum comes out and nag me .
(Not sleep, is lie down on bed and play handphone games LOL)

Goodbyez , Mata ne . ♥ .

Immaturity

2010-08-24T02:11:00.003+08:00

Immaturity ;

I hate the way I piss people of because of my words .
I guess , that's the only way that make me so immature .

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I wanna change myself .
I don't wanna stop changing .
That is , I hope , if I'm changing for the better .

I suck so much that I feel like killing myself .

Holding on

2010-08-22T20:46:00.003+08:00

Holding on ;

I don't want to go back to what I used to be .
It sucks , it's not fun at all . It brings me down .

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You're back to square one Thk .
What happened ? Care to tell ?
Your encouraging words is what I need most now .
But , it's impossible for strangers to communicate .

Excitement

2010-08-21T02:18:00.002+08:00

Excitement ;

A feeling where you will only think about good stuffs ahead .
A feeling where you can't wait for it to happen/arrive .

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It's the day , where I get my new profile .
2% more and everything's going to be changed ♥ .

Oh & my brother reached Sg at 10.30pm :D !

2010-08-20T02:41:00.002+08:00

Normal post for today ? Guess so .

Feeling dizzy and feel like vomitting an hour ago -.-
And I haven't sleep yet . WHY AM I LIKE THIS .

Alright , brother is reaching Sg at 11pm , Cool much .
Time to sleep .

Goodbye . ♥ .

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Promise ;

Promises are meant to be broken .
Promises are meant to become lies .

& I'll just force myself to not fall into that hole again .

Accompaniment

2010-08-18T16:07:00.004+08:00

Accompaniment ;

I'll try my very best to be there for you .
& I hope you'll do the same too .

-

So , someone called her a bitch .
Thus this bitch called 'someone' , a bitch .
Oh yeah , bitches add colours to your life .

& I enjoyed my journey at night .
The journey of hopping blogs with the help of Google.com .

Giving up

2010-08-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

Giving up ;

I've lost my hope in it .
I've lost my trust believing it .

-

How I wish I can get rid of stuffs that will ruin my mood .
Can't be asking me to not do anything .
Since it's always those stupid games and hurtful words that does it .

Ignorance .2

2010-08-17T01:11:00.003+08:00

(Good) Ignorance v.2 ;

It feels so much better to be in my own world .
Not that I wouldn't make my approach to you .
But ignoring negative stuffs like nobody's business .

-

I still love my handphone ttm . ♥ .

Anyone ? Clicky! (Kind of pathetic)

Smiles ;

2010-08-16T01:22:00.001+08:00

Smiles ;

When you're really feeling happy .
When you wouldn't care how bad situations are .

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Yes , I love my handphone ttm .

Lies

2010-08-14T23:31:00.003+08:00

Lies ;

Truth is so much less painful .
Why can't you be more frank with me ?
White lies you say ? Think carefully please .

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Blackberry , is mine .
Problems , all mine .
Getting them solved, I'm still waiting .

Trust

2010-08-12T22:40:00.003+08:00

Trust ;

Would you bother to change their opinion ,
When they don't trust you anymore .

-

I'll get my hands on my BlackBerry tomorrow .
Be it getting scolded or whatever by you .
I'll pay everything with my own earned money .
Be it working till I have got no time to slack like usual .